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/tmg/ bros, I come to you with a question.
For years I called myself an UBW fanboy.
I saw only the good in what that route could bring.
I hoped that Shirou would find happiness.

Turns out, that was all a lie. A coping mechanism because I didn't want to accept that Heaven's Feel is actually the only right route.
Makes sense I couldn't see it. Because Tsukihime didn't do something like this.
Heaven's Feel's existence directly erases anything of value from Fate and UBW, in my eyes.

How am I supposed to be optimistic about these routes when Nasu makes it clear that those are just fantasy nonsense?
In his own words, HF is meant to bring you back to reality because you can't save something as large as the world.
Fate and UBW are only routes where Shirou wastes his life and ends up suffering more (except Fate, I guess, because dumb fanservice Last Episode).

As much as I hate to admit it, the retards on /a/ are right. Sakura is the only one who can make Shirou happy.
And that bothers me so much. I feel fucking gaslighted. Why was I made to play those previous routes?
Why did I have to like Saber and Rin only to realize how toxic a relationship with them can be for Shirou?
Why did I read routes that are basically just some really long bad ends?
Why couldn't Nasu just keep his story linear like Mahoyo and say what he wants to say without playing with my feelings?
HF is obviously the route he considers the most correct and it's the one where you have to stab Saber in the heart.
Literally telling you to grow up.

I hate this. I can't describe how much I hate this.
People say Urobuchi is cruel? Nasu is worse.
At least Urobuchi never lies to you.

Fuck this shit. I'll go kill myself.