/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I was fucking retarded in high school, feared everything. Struggled with math which pulled me down. To be honest I can't even remember it well it's all a blur. I was so stupid though. Either way it's what guaranteed my NEEThood. I dropped school thinking I'd be really good in advertising and marketing. I go into this private school thinking I'll get the best. I fuck over so bad, barely passing alot of subjects while others glided over it. I made no friends or talked to anyone other than the teacher I failed multiple courses for stupid decisions I made. Ended up having to pay additional 1000 for each that I failed. One of these courses I failed twice and now awaiting third and final chance. Currently doing national service so studies on hold. But now I forgot alot of what I learnt and when I go back I'm going to get fucked over and fail so badly. I know I deserve what I get but if I could repent and fix it all, and for once get my life in order instead of retreating to escapism