/jp/ - Otaku Culture

It doesn't feel like July of 2021. It feels like it's still January of 2019 when 星歴13夜's first music video released and I can wake up any second.

Wake up in a bed that quickly I'd see is not my own bed, it's a princess bed with many pillows and plush animals and pink curtains. I'd look at the room and see it's not my room. It's a girl's room. I'd get up from the bed and look for a mirror. A voice in my head tells me the truth but it's impossible, there's no way something like this could happen. But, when I'd find a mirror and look at it, I'd see that I'm a girl. Excitement and a strange feeling would fill me from the toes to the top of the head.

I'd remember a faded memory from a time when I was a man in the future. A memory that on this day, a new idol group is emerging with their first music video. That this group is special, that it was the group that made the future man me feel the magic of idols closer than ever and find happiness and comfort on a site I would've never heard of as an innocent cute girl. I wouldn't remember it was partially because of impure thoughts about Akane, or the lewd posts about idols in these threads, that the future man me found the happiness and comfort. As a girl I'd only remmeber the feeling.

On my phone I'd see if the music video is yet released. It would be an hour ago, just how it was when the future man me saw it. I'd feel the happiness for them that only girls can feel for other girls. Men don't feel such happiness for other men, never. Men can't feel pure happiness like this, only selfish happiness... I'd wish to forget knowledge like this about men's feelings, yet only remembering more because of this sudden memory. I'd remember that as a man I masturbated to pure pictures of idols and I'd feel disgusted. Girls don't understand how men can masturbate to pictures where it's only cute, nothing sexual at all. I'd know this as a girl.

I'd watch the music video for おやすみ未来と恋乙女 and smile a pure smile. No impure thoughts about any of the members, only happy girly thoughts. I'd wonder about who designed their dresses and did their make-up and other things like these. I wouldn't analytically think about the music, I'd dance to it without thinking that someone may be looking in the window and looking at my energetic dance with perverted eyes. Cute girls may forget that they're always being observed by perverts if there's even one out of a million chance that a pervert can see.

Idols are magical but they cannot turn back time or turn an ugly man into a cute girl. Even if this is what it may feel like, it's impossible. Don't be fooled by the happiness and comfort that idols bring, it's an illusion. Don't fall into the dream too deep. It's July of 2021, not January of 2019. We can never wake up as cute girls.

>ywn be in bed with Akane
;_;