/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I'd say that I'm feeling okay? I honestly don't even know, it all feels melancholic, empty and confusing. If my mom asks me if I'm fine I have trouble to even think of a proper answer. I don't know how I feel and yet at the same time know that there simply isn't anything. Ah, even if, I'd have problems to talk about my emotions, because the few times I do feel something or have an opinion my throat just gets stuck and I lose interest in opening up quickly afterwards. So I have a rather neutral or apathetic look and feeling towards most thinks, but even then it might confuse me, like a cat that suddenly became more sentient or something. Atleast my dreams are nice, even if they might suck or be rather questionable sometimes. I began to understand what some of them might mean and came to the conclusion that some of them must be a reflection of the various things inside of me, bad, good or simple interests. Aside from that, I'm no longer a NEET, I was coerced out of that and am now stuck in retail. Atleast I don't have to work full-time and get left alone. Furthermore, since I still live with my parents I get to see and hear what goes on between them. Mom will move out with two of my siblings while my future stay is still in question, but I think I'd have to go with mom. I can't help, but feel like I'm part of the reasons they no longer get along and dad wishes to part.