/jp/ - Otaku Culture

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I don't know but every once in a while someone picks out my posts but they don't have a point while doing it.

The only thing I dislike about Gura is her lack of community interaction. It feels like she's genuinely afraid of her community. She can call herself a lurker all she wants, but it looks bad from the outside. It just sucks because literally all 4 of the other girls seem like they have a really tight-knit community with a lot of interactions and fun involvement. Whereas Gura will sometimes just ghost everyone for days at a time. I doubt it's something she'll change either, because it's not objectively a problem. It's just a personal gripe of mine.

>>31008210
>Ina isn't even recording so as to put up clips on twitter

I have a sound file of every time that Gura has "interacted" with me. Sometimes I just listen to it on repeat for hours because I'm so lonely and starved for attention.

I can't stop thinking about her. I want to know where she is right now. I want to know why she cancelled the stream. I want to know if she's sleeping well, or eating well, or what she does to entertain herself in her spare time. My entire 9 hour shift is spent thinking about Gura. When people come to talk to me during my shift I get frustrated that they broke me out of fantasizing about Gura. I fantasize about winning the lottery only so I can send red SCs to Gura. I check the thread whenever I can sneak a look at my phone and CTRL + F "Gura" on every archived thread for the whole day. I pretend to take bathroom breaks so I can look at the thread. I leave work early to watch her. I call in sick to watch her. The one time I missed her stream because it was early, I was in the worst mood I can recall from recent memory. I haven't spent time with my parents in months even though we live together. I can no longer enjoy the video games I used to play because I'd rather be watching Gura. I send her superchats every stream just praying she'll read my name and laugh at my comments. When Gura cancelled the stream I rushed to the thread to defend her honor even though it's literally meaningless. Any time someone insults her I take it personally. The further away from a stream we are in either direction is directly proportional to how bad of a mood I'm in. Since she cancelled the stream I've just spent 2 hours reading the thread and feeling bad.
I feel like I should tack on that I have no delusions of ever meeting her online or in person, just in case people think I'm dangerous.
All of this is true and this is not the first time I've had a mental breakdown. Before it was because of visual novel characters and not real living humans though. I think I legitimately need meds but I don't want to deal with that because so far I'm still functioning in society and no one seems to have noticed I've gone mad.

Gura cancelling this stream really put into perspective how fucking pathetic my life is becoming. My night was legitimately ruined and I don't even know what to do with myself.

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I'm sorry for repeatedly posting the same thing but I've realized that this whole thing was a nothingburger. It's just annoying that it was literally the last thing that happened before the stream ended. Soured the threads and my mood but seeing this stream be scheduled has already saved my mood. I just want more Gura and nothing can take that from me.

I'm mostly shitposting but there's a genuine pit in my stomach right now. I want to ignore this feeling and pretend I don't care but this is clearly affecting me.

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Anyone still waiting for news on Gura's SC reading stream is deluding themselves. She would have made some mention of it by now on twitter or a youtube post or something. I actually think it's really funny that she keeps mentioning it and still doesn't do it. Please, Gura, just be like Ina.

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I am saddened since I was looking forward to her playing a game with investigative themes like that more than Visage, but at least she'll be able to get into the game tomorrow without feeling like she's missing out on something live. I know how people around here get about missing something live.