Existential dread

[Anonymous No.4512829]

My whole life has always been living under the shadow of someone else. My younger brother's IQ is 135, while mine is only 116, he was graduated with honors and currently works as a chief software developed for a multinational corporation, while I was a college dropout who has spent the last decade in shitty jobs and using drugs. Nearly all of my favorite artists are also better than me while younger, sometimes much younger, and have already reached levels that would take me entire years to get on pair with. My ex boyfriend's new boyfriend is an artist who makes nearly 100K in patreon every month, and that guy is 2 years younger than me. Sometimes I just really want to pull the trigger ya know.