/vent/ thread

[Anonymous No.4006544]

ill start

>be beg
>studying german cause im a rapefugge
>period pain so i take 0.25 of xan
>mfw now i cant study or draw
>ill try pyw in afew hours when it subsides
>mfw filled with selfloathin
keep goin bros we gonna make it

[Anonymous No.4006581]

this thread is gonna be filled with incels

[Anonymous No.4006586]

>>4006544
can i put my spermy worms in you?

[Anonymous No.4006591]

Have you had your mental break down of the day /ic/?

[Anonymous No.4006596]

>>4006544
I have some random calligraphy kit lying around and I've been using it to ink my doodles and damn I don't wanna go back to ballpoint now. the weird part is it isn't even an inking brush. It's a brush your supposed to use to pink ink in the nib pen.

[Anonymous No.4006611]

>>4006581
Starting with you.

[Anonymous No.4006782]

>>4006544

AAAAAAGGGHHHHHHHHHHH

I just deleted every piece of art I made on all my social medias and I want to start over but then I keep looking at my back at every new thing I make and I just want to put it in a shredder and shoah it off of the internet.

God, how the fuck do I figure out how to stay happy with what I draw? I keep seeing more and more mistakes and more and more messages about how much I suck and how I'm never going to amount to anything and I keep deal with it. I can't bring my self to believe the people that compliment my art because now I've realized they gave me pity likes and that makes me feel even worse.

I'm not even gonna answer any questions about what happened to my art. I'm just give non-answers and redirect the subject.

[Anonymous No.4006796]

>>4006782
you are looking at this all wrong.

set aside two 30 minute periods for hard studying: life drawing, timed exercises, book shit.

THEN set aside an hour for pure fun drawing. fuck around, work on some ideas, make some comics. FAST AND LOOSE!

shits easy come on

[Anonymous No.4006805]

>be me
>riding bike bcs no car and bike is fun
>fall off bike
>scrape hands
>gravel goes in hand
>mfw I can't draw until my hand heals

feels bad bros. draw some robots in my place anons, fight the good fight

[Anonymous No.4006885]

>be in recovery from anorexia for 2 years
>client commissions a series of illustrations for a weightloss product

[Anonymous No.4006906]

>>4006544
>taking an anxiety medication for pain
?????

[Anonymous No.4006909]

>>4006885
> series of illustrations for a weightloss product
cant imagine why they usually use pics ???

[Anonymous No.4006911]

>>4006906
dont have anythin else

[Anonymous No.4006913]

>>4006911
why not just take aspirin or something from the store

[Anonymous No.4006921]

i can't express myself with my drawings because i'm too /beg/

[Anonymous No.4006923]

>>4006909
I don't understand what you said there. Why wouldn't they use pics?

[Anonymous No.4006932]

>be me
>sketch random flower I stole from my grandma's garden
>do it lightly with pencil
not that bad
>get out my water colors
>some yellow and red
not bad
>take out black blue and yellow for shading
>mix the colors
>apply the mixed color
>imo shading ruined it, didn't even bother to finish background

> PiC rElAtEd wTf WhAt DiD I tHiNk?

[Anonymous No.4006964]

>>4006923
yeah before and afters or something idk

[Anonymous No.4006996]

>>4006964
I really don't understand what you mean. There's photography and there's brand illustration, one does not exclude the other

[Anonymous No.4007003]

>>4006932
never use black for shading

[Anonymous No.4007071]

>>4006544
I'm worried I'm completely blind on how shit my art is.
Whenever I post, i get ignored, as if I'm not there, while others who post their stuff that I consider worse than mine, still get (you)'s, even if not for praise, just for constructive critisism.
I feel like my art is so shit that everybody just looks the other way and pretends i'm not there like you'd do to a retard nagging you.
I have no other source of validation other than 4chan and it fucking hurts. I broke a pencil when a thread i posted on 404'd with me being completely ignored a few hours ago

[Anonymous No.4007181]

>>4007071
Me too anon

[Anonymous No.4007212]

>>4007071
>>4007181
>caring this much about a (you)
If you don't get a reply that means you are probably doing something right. Most of the replies you see are either ironic, full of shit, a fanboy sucking dick, a jealous fag, or someone with a hateboner. Getting replies from here is as useless as receiving a bookmark or a favorite from a random bot or someone browsing for a quick fap session that saw your work unless the post contains a critique that addresses your weakpoints and suggests what you may do to improve. With that being said post your work.

[Anonymous No.4007273]

>finally get my first comment after 3 months of posting art
>"uwu"
t-thanks

[Anonymous No.4007527]

>>4007003
yeah, heard that one before
I used yellow, blue (only a little) and black (maybe too much?)
What do I use instead? I mean not for the colored leaves of a flower, bc they almost let all light through, but in general?
I heard:
-Move hue in different direction than light source
- Wouldn't it also had to be a bit darker than the original color?
- What about saturation?
- How would I mix such a color for shading using water color in contrast to using a color picker in Photoshop? (Because I noticed that if I add black (for example) it also changes saturation of a color)

[Anonymous No.4007560]

>>4007212
This is correct
When it comes to criticism
Silence is a compliment

[Anonymous No.4007572]

>>4007273
UwU

[Anonymous No.4007583]

>>4006581
>mfw filled with selfloathin
As you should. Yikes.

[Anonymous No.4007614]

tfw concept artist in games btfo all you losers

[Anonymous No.4007732]

>ask for requests
>literally nobody replies
>other drawfag asks for requests a day or so later
>7 (you)'s

[Anonymous No.4007737]

>>4007273

[Anonymous No.4007745]

>Try posting art in beg got nothing
>Try making my own thread
>Get no critiques
Man I love this board

[Anonymous No.4007751]

>>4007614
>concept artist

Haha try independent illustration you loser

[Anonymous No.4007855]

I badly want a super fat gf that I can keep stuffing to make her bigger and fatter.

Pic related I like Irken ladies

[Anonymous No.4008029]

I started drawing three months ago and at first I really enjoyed it but now the full gravity of how much I have to learn and how hard it all is is hitting me

[Anonymous No.4008177]

>trying I draw porn
>it looks awkward and all around unsexy
>Tom embarrassed to continue
How the fuck do porn artists get pat that stage of shit. Drawing bad is one thing but drawing bad porn is just a lethal dose of cringe

[Anonymous No.4008219]

>>4008177
Just go onto DA's fetish side. Look for something so cringy that it makes your art look A-OK

Some good starters
https://www.deviantart.com/cleverfoxman/art/An-explanation-of-inflation-fetishism-AN-ESSAY-635597905
https://www.deviantart.com/inflationkingdom
https://www.deviantart.com/tag/slobfetish

[Anonymous No.4008308]

>>4008029
Dont worry just focus on what interests you at the moment

[Anonymous No.4008317]

>>4006544
what's it like in Germany as a refugee?

[Anonymous No.4008830]

>try to push myself and draw more
>get tendonitis and can't draw for ~a month
>recover, start drawing again

>much more careful about my health; exercise, stretching breaks, healthy food...
>draw more and make big progress until

>Pilonidal Cyst
>causes: hairy ass and sitting too long
>requires surgical removal
>recovery lasts around a month, clinic visits every day to replace dressing
>pus ejects from the open wound all day
God
I just want to fucking draw
I just want to fucking draw why is that so fucking hard
I'm so fucking frustrated, every time I want to do something my body just breaks down

[Anonymous No.4008838]

>>4006544
The new windows ten update has a chamce of deleting my giant collection of art videos that took over a week to install

[Anonymous No.4008850]

>Extremely self conscious about all the mistakes on my drawings
>Try to improve the areas I'm weak at
>Put time and effort in improving
>0 improvement
>Everyone else seems to be already excellent or improving at a steady pace
Extreme frustration and no way out

[Anonymous No.4008854]

>>4007527
not that anon, but it's not so much a rule not to use black, but a lot of /beg/s don't pay enough attention to the temperature / hue the dark colours should be. i personally use blue and brown for darkening colours and either a warm or cool yellow along with white for lightening colours (this is with gouache tho.

and since we're in a vent thread, gouache can do everything watercolor can and more, it's objectively superior in every way, unless the limitations of it are your reason for choosing the medium

[Anonymous No.4008858]

>>4008850
you're either studying the wrong thing, overestimating how much comparable time and effort you're putting in, or you just don't see your improvement yet, which is quite common.

[Anonymous No.4008860]

>>4007855
i'm desperately wanting to get rid of my overeating, now morbidly fat gf, come steal her off me pls

[Anonymous No.4008867]

>>4008858
>I don't think you're spending time and effort and you're just doing it wrong bro

[Anonymous No.4008933]

>>4008860
And I desperately want to get rid of my virginity, you ungrateful cunt

[Anonymous No.4008958]

>/beg/ tier
>finally starting to see the form of things, feel great about breaking them down into shapes, finally feeling like I'm getting the hang of making things have depth
>2 days later
>too exhausted to tell what the fuck I'm looking at
>feels like the form is all wrong and I'm just shitting it out
>legitimately straining to think
I'm so tired, I just want to stop drawing flat-looking bullshit.

[Anonymous No.4008975]

>>4008830
dude
wtf is this picture
is this some kind of Simon Stahlenhag photo editing concept...or is it real?

[Anonymous No.4008998]

>>4007071
>>4007212

If your work actually is bad (and who knows, it might be) and you're not getting criticism that means they don't know how to answer you. You're past their skill level. They might see what is wrong but can't truly articulate what they mean. I don't like giving criticism that isn't decisive.

>>4007273
Stop doing furry art

[Anonymous No.4009061]

>no artistic friends to play minecraft with
crikey

[Anonymous No.4009153]

>>4008975
It's a crashed truck, it was carrying fresh cow/slaughter intestines

[Anonymous No.4009189]

>>4008860
Send me her contact info and I'll take her from you.

Also what do you think of my sketch? Did it in like 7 mins.

[Anonymous No.4009197]

>>4008317
swiss but cant say muc since im quite inexperienced with lif .well minus the health incurance and the fact that mcdonalds rejected me andthat peopl always greet hre wich i hate its quite cozy. Especially after i delt with the popo hre cause my parents bac home claimed me a missin person lol

[Anonymous No.4009209]

>>4009197
Where are you from rapefugee?

If you need to learn Engrish you can try an app called Duolingo or play with crossword puzzles.

[Anonymous No.4009211]

>>4008830
have you heard of the wonders of standing while drawing

[Anonymous No.4009212]

>>4006544
GESTURE DRAWING IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS IDIOTS. FUCK DETAILS UNTIL YOU HAVE CONTROL OF FORM AND LINE

[Anonymous No.4009224]

I'm friends with a stupid bitch that keeps complaining about having no following on socoal media, yet they haven't even uploaded a fucking complete piece this entire year. I get anxiety and depression exist, because I have them myself, but therapy fucking exists. I'm tired of someone wallowing in their despair without actively doing something against it

[Anonymous No.4009227]

>>4009209
im an olivngger originally which i hate , iwis i were a slav or somethin
i jus type like this cause caus r9k my lazyness,memes and multitaskin dont worry bout muh engrish tehe .But german duo is bretty gooo.

[Anonymous No.4009230]

/beg,/

[Anonymous No.4009231]

>>4008830
>saya no uta.jpg
also my ass is hairy, you're making me anxious

[Anonymous No.4009344]

>>4009231
Go shave it, shave it now
Take it to some gay barber and have him wax down your crack, then laser the area
I'm 100% serious, this stupid shit will decommission you for a long while.

It happened to a friend of mine before, he opted for the old-school surgery (only one his insurance accepted) and had a second asshole for 3 months.

THE SURGERY IS EXPENSIVE, THE DAILY AFTERCARE IS EXTREMELY EXPENSIVE
-- THE ONLY PREREQUISITES FOR THIS CONDITION IS A HAIRY ASS, PERSONAL HYGIENE DOES NOT MATTER --

I am purging hair from my body, I am NOT dealing with anything like this again.

>>4009211
That's what I'm going to be doing, but it means leaving a few digital pieces unfinished.
I'm sure my shitty body will come up with a fresh, new illness for me to deal with then.

[Anonymous No.4009662]

>Focus on school
>Get little to no art done
>Focus on art
>Grades slip
I just want to spend all day drawing and improving but college just feels like it gets in the way. Every day that I lose from working on art due to studying or simply feeling tired from classes feel like such a waste of time. How the hell do I manage my time to get both done properly? How do I not let my desire to draw cause me to miss deadlines and to do horribly in my classes? I feel terrible.

[Anonymous No.4009729]

Having trouble with a “friend”.

I’m not a really good artist, but whatever I experiment with my style ( things I see other doing), my supposed friend does too. What really bothers me is that I’m not a fucking art genius, far from it, but there are things a lot of artists do with their drawings out there and my friend doesn’t care, but when it’s me... this person will have to try it too. For example, if I try muted colors for a while, my friend will start doing it too. I’m always uncomfortable with this kind of behavior. Like, why me?

This friend is successful with art, and I don’t want what I do to be compared like I’m the influenced one, not the other way around. I don’t own a style, there’s a lot of artists I like and I get a thing or two from them, but I get upset if my so called friend does the same to me. I don’t know if I should block him, hiding is not something I want to do.

[Anonymous No.4009742]

>>4009729
you sound neurotic. i prescribe 50 ccs of have sex

[Anonymous No.4009743]

I got my art roasted on a thread like a month ago and I haven't been able to get over it since. I can't get that shit out of my mind. It's not like this is the first time I've gotten critique, I usually handle crit pretty well, but it was the first time I had like 10 different anons telling me over and over again my work was garbage and I just haven't been able to recover. The worst part is that it was all vague shit like "your style sucks" so it's not even something that gives me a concrete direction to work in.
I know they were probably crabs, but I can't stop wondering if they were actually all right and my work really is shit. I get compliments from other anons, but I keep wondering if they're just doing it to be nice, or if they just have low standards. I've been studying and practicing almost every day since and I still can't get peace of mind, I just want to have some shred of confidence again.

[Anonymous No.4009747]

>>4009743
You will get better and one day leave this place in peace

[Anonymous No.4009750]

>>4009742
This happened a lot. At some point I thought I was neurotic too, but I proved myself wrong. Also, don’t really like sex, sorry.

[Anonymous No.4009753]

>>4009743
This but it happened to me several months ago. Know they were probably crabs but it's fucking with me.

[Anonymous No.4009755]

>>4009743
Do you have someone you can trust without a doubt? That’ll always be honest with you? With art stuff.

[Anonymous No.4009767]

>>4009743
If you say you have been practicing for a month, then it should show. If you've truly feel that you've learned something out of your endeavors, then you grew both as an artist and as a person. I'm sure that there some genuine anons here that mean well and dont shit post all the time, too.

[Anonymous No.4009777]

>>4009755
No, I don't. I know people who are knowlegable about art but sugarcoat everything a ton, and I know people who don't sugarcoat but know hardly anything. I'd honestly kill to have a solid, trustworthy mentor.

>>4009747
I want to. I want to just leave this place but I feel like I need a dose of harsh reality to set me straight artistically every so often. I just wish I knew who the people who told me this shit were so I could see whether they were just crabbing or if they actually knew what they were talking about.

>>4009767
I hope it shows, somehow. I've been bouncing from portrait studies to foliage studies to copying Yoshinari cause I've just been lost, trying to find what the secret ingredient I'm missing, and that probably cut back my gains by a lot. Thank you for the wise words anon.

[Anonymous No.4010338]

I've reached that point I didn't want to, so now drawing makes me stress. I really don't know what to do anymore.

[Anonymous No.4010356]

>>4006544
where’d you come from you obviously know english, Yemin

[Anonymous No.4010400]

>>4009743
>>4009777
This place is brutal man, some anons said I regressed in skill like a year ago, it honestly destroyed my confidence for a while. You really just have to get over it and realize that 80% of anons get their art roasted on this board. Even people like ruan jia get shit on.

[Anonymous No.4010455]

Everything I draw still looks like shit. Is it because I use a pencil? Do I need to do digitial? Do I need pens? What the fuck is wrong why doesn't it turn out right. Am I drawing too hard on the paper what the fuck why is this so frustrating why does this dumb bullshit make me want to cry. EVERYONE else's stuff looks fine when they sketch or do gesture or anything but I'm just terrible I don't get it.

[Anonymous No.4010466]

>>4010455
pyw

[Anonymous No.4010479]

>>2782724
>https://boards.fireden.net/ic/thread/2781341/#2782724
>I was crabbing Fishine 3 years ago
>he is now one of the GOAT
>while I'm still garbage
lmao karma is a cuck

[Anonymous No.4010485]

>>4009743
>tfw I still think about the anons that roasted my art almost 5 years ago

The ghosts that haunt my soul, but keep that drive in me to want to get better every day

[Anonymous No.4010546]

>art got rejected on hentai foundry AGAIN
GODDAMMIT, IT WAS GREAT I EVEN GOT 200 BOOKMARKS ON PIXIV, FUCK YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.4010778]

>some retard furry retweeted my shit that's not even furry related
>now 30% of my followers are furries with dog penises as their profile pics
>they are trying to roleplay with me
Degenerates

[Anonymous No.4010819]

>Picture in my mind what I want to draw.
>It's glorious, excellent shading and lightening and it's in colored
>tries to sketch it out
>sketch looks nothing like what I had picture
>I lack the understanding and techniques on how I wanted this to be color
>gets frustrated how it's nothing like how I wanted it and quits

[Anonymous No.4010845]

>>4007071
same boat anon. i don't typically post my art on 4chan, but basically everywhere else i do post it it just gets ignored by everyone (aside from my friends, but i'm pretty sure they just give it attention because we're friends and feel obligated to) even art i think that looks shittier than mine gains more attention. i honestly just feel like my art's incredibly fucking bland and boring mainly because of how shit my posing is. i fucking hate it. i'm not even in this for money/attention, i'd just like at least someone to appreciate my work

[Anonymous No.4010879]

>>4010778
I'll take "Things That Didn't Happen" for $500, Alex.

[Anonymous No.4010884]

>>4010845
Same, except when I draw porn, then I get attention. I just posted an original non-porn drawing that I worked really hard on the other day and it was ignored. But sometimes my non-porn drawings get some attention so I don't understand.

[Anonymous No.4010897]

>>4010479
He was always great though, there wasn't really any sudden growth spurt from him since 2016. If you still can't see it now, that's probably why you are still garbage.

[Anonymous No.4010957]

>>4008860
Still here if you want me to take your morbidly fat gf from you.

[Anonymous No.4012032]

Mental breakdown are becoming part of my art routine. If I spend 1 hour drawing somewhere in that hour I'll break down over how bad my art is then recover and get back to work.

[Anonymous No.4012277]

When will I don't give a fuck about my follower count? Like it's okay for me when some cool guy never follows me, but it's sad when some other cool guy follows you at first but then gets disappointed and unfollows.

[Anonymous No.4012371]

>>4012277
that's nothing to do with your feed, follow/unfollow a growth technique people use to get more followers, truth is they probably didn't look at your work at all anon

[Anonymous No.4012379]

>>4012371
They were bigger than me and I followed them first months before they followed me, so its kinda different

[Anonymous No.4012420]

>Join art discord
>Tamogatchi simulator server is most active
>Selfie server is second most active
>Third is a A FUCKING KARAOKE SERVER
>Everyone is half my age, the oldest person is 19.
>/beg/ tier artist with 300 followers asking if the reason no one commissions them is because of their high prices.
>Melt their mouths over pintrest 'how to draw feet' tutorials
This is what I get for joining an art discord I found on an instagram account.

[Anonymous No.4012726]

My parents are cracking down on me for staying home so much and my father is forcing me to go with him to do blue collar work on weekends because "being home all the time unacceptable". This would be acceptable if all the conditions weren't absolute shite. It's labor work in stuffy and hot locations, all day from 6 or 7 AM, for 10-12 fucking hours. It's stressful work that leaves dirty and tired, I got fucking acne breakouts all over my face again from the fucking stress dreading the weekends has put on me. I thought getting home so tired I couldn't work on drawing was bad but it's now at the "getting home so late there isn't even time to work" point. This shit is driving me up the walls.
I've got a resume and portfolio that I've been firing off at all the art jobs in my area but of course it's all fucking marketing or advertising graphic design work. Silly me for spending years learning anatomy, character design and perspective when I should've actually been learning making shitty logos and pamphlets. At this rate I'm going to have to settle for $8/hr part time in retail or fast food if I can't "find something that makes money". And yes, you may now call me a spoiled bitchmade zoomer or whatever.

[Anonymous No.4013115]

>>4012420
to be fair you are sans posting so you dont seem that much older

[Anonymous No.4013121]

>>4010356
olivniggerland
most of the world is bilingual t b f

[Anonymous No.4013260]

I'm sick of being sick all the time
Every single day there's a new pain or disease somewhere
I eat well and exercise but my body is in a constant state of atrophy

My memory is utter garbage, it just doesn't work. It's been like that since I was a kid.
I keep forgetting things, things I shouldn't be forgetting, and retaining new info feels like a task and a half.

What the fuck am I supposed to do with this?
I just want to blow my head off and be done with this, get a new body and mind that wasn't shit from the start

[Anonymous No.4013294]

I was going through a Japanese course online and I came across an account I made almost 7 years ago and the menomics I made are so creative I would never have the brain power to come up with them today. It's like a completely different person.

Here I am years later going over the same material because I gave up.

[Anonymous No.4013300]

>>4012032
Man I can't even draw for more than 15 minutes a day without qoing apeshit and giving up
If you can find the courage to go back drawing you can make it anon

[Anonymous No.4013316]

>>4013294
post pic also as a fellow learner i think complex mneminics are silly and prefer immersion

[Anonymous No.4013324]

>>4006544
Who here has an irrational beef with photographers?
They all seem twice as pretentious as actual artists yet the only thing they will ever want to photograph is their own (suuuuuper interesting) lives/friends/crappy parties they go to, or depressed sluts who look like they just cried.
I know photography is its own thing and has its own challenges, i know you shouldnt generalize everyone and be nice and yadda yadda yadda
But photographers are all self-obsessed hacks sorry

[Anonymous No.4013325]

>>4013316
https://www.memrise.com/user/Bad.Gateway/mems/created/?page=18 is my old profile.

Like for example, using the legolass character to distinct between arrow, quiver, and fiesta is genius.

[Anonymous No.4013329]

>>4006591
Of the hour you must mean

[Anonymous No.4013337]

>>4012726
That picture makes me want to die

[Anonymous No.4013342]

>start posting online
>start getting a following
>added pressure of eyes on me
>every new piece has to be better than the last
>delete art quickly if it doesnt start getting as much likes as my last upload
>so much pressure i start not wanting to draw anymore
>thinking about just deleting my account and starting over anonymously
>but that would be stupid because what if i can get some comissions/money through my current account
aieeee i dont know

[Anonymous No.4013345]

>>4012726
youre lucky if you only have to work 2 days a week. thats 5 full days you can work on improving art and building a folio. i wish i had that

[Anonymous No.4013349]

>>4013325
Here is a good one. Like I can't believe I took the time to find such accurate photos. Nowadays I'd be a lazy shit and just use others mems. But going through this content again has made me realize how creative visually I was back then.

[Anonymous No.4013363]

>>4013349
Last one...heh.

[Anonymous No.4013394]

>>4006611
>>4007583
huh?

[Anonymous No.4013413]

>>4013342
I feel like this as well, you just gotta stop giving a fuck, keep doing and posting what you would do if you had 0 followers

[Anonymous No.4013564]

Wake up 5:25, go to shit it job I hate, get home by 16:40, too tired to do shit, end up wasting time on PC watching crap as too sleepy, pass out, fall asleep, go sleep till 20:00, wake up realise day is wasted, hate yourself till 00:00 sheep 4-5 hours, repeat cycle

[Anonymous No.4013574]

Go to /th, /v, /a to participates in retreads
Someone either posts a way better delivery at the same time as mine or someone posts a delivery of the request I'm currently working on. I post what I have so far, I usually feel defeated. I usually end up taking it as a experience. One day I'll getting better, I'm just taking longer then most. In the end I'm happy when the op acknowledges my drawings and say they like them.

[Anonymous No.4013840]

>>4006544
>i'm lookin' for your style all over

[Anonymous No.4013846]

>>4013840
im curious as to wat ya mean

[Anonymous No.4013904]

I'd probably make more money as a thot then a artist. But I want to able to have people appreciate my art because they genuinely like it.

[Anonymous No.4013918]

>>4013904
iv had done camgirlin but honestly i prefer drawing caus im ugly irl

[Anonymous No.4013994]

Some drawings or concepts seem very good in my head, then I draw them and there's always some issues - composition, wrong message, what do I even draw in the background etc. It takes ages before I finish something because I reject so many ideas after sketching them out.

[Anonymous No.4014186]

>>4013260
holy shit my surgery wound hurts so much
I can't even see straight
this is a new level, like a metal rod is burning through my body

[Anonymous No.4014318]

>get commission
>it's another generic DND character

[Anonymous No.4014393]

I wish I could stop being a nervous fuck and just stop caring so much. It's just a drawing. But I can't.

[Anonymous No.4014416]

>be 21
>recently find all around people younger than me excel past my skill level almost to mockingly degrees
>begin to feelsbadman mode knowing i won't be able to surpass them in skill like my age

I understand this is a pretty typical scenario and i'm being a bitch but it does make any effort I made feel minuscule regardless. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

[Anonymous No.4014442]

>>4013260
>My memory is utter garbage, it just doesn't work. It's been like that since I was a kid.
I keep forgetting things, things I shouldn't be forgetting, and retaining new info feels like a task and a half.

I have ADHD and I was in the exact same shoes.

I found out about that at my late 20s and ritalin helped me out big time.

[Anonymous No.4014476]

Annoying.
Had a little dalliance with alcoholism the past few months and only drew for 6 hours a week at life drawing. Literally lost gains. Don't stop drawing you mentally ill spergs.

[Anonymous No.4014492]

>>4014186
Did they give you home with the wrong pain medication or something? It shouldn't be so unbearably painful and stress will make you heal slower.

[Anonymous No.4014497]

I've spent the last 20 something years not doing much but drawing media shit, and doing it in a mediocre fashion. It's mostly because I have never picked up an art book or bothered to do exercises before, I just usually pick up a pad of paper and draw something every few months and drop it again.

Now I'm trying to really set aside and dedicate time to trying to learn, and like always it's so fucking frustrating because I just don't understand it. Just doing the bare essentials like the whole drawing what you see in the Right Side of The Brain book is incredibly taxing and confusing.

It's vomit inducing being so mediocre while everybody tells you how much of a talent you have. There's so many basic things I lack as an artist but I don't even feel like I could understand them if I tried.

[Anonymous No.4014746]

>>4013573
Do you think autors of these courses feel bad about people who buy their content but end up never watching it or having zero gains? You can choose to support them anytime tho.

[Anonymous No.4014889]

>>4014393
>It's just a drawing
No sweety. Your entire existence is defined by every mark you make.

[Anonymous No.4015974]

I've been having daydream visions of getting shot in the back of my head at my job for a while. I think my higher self is trying to warn me about it. There is this guy I intentionally ignore everyday (because he reminds me of some childhood kid I won't go into a blogpost about) who is pretty obnoxious.

I live in florida and it seems it's legal to kill iguanas. This guy has a fucking shotgun in the parking lot killing iguanas. I'm freaked out now to go back to work on monday.

[Anonymous No.4016086]

I don't have much fun or motivation to draw during the day until it suddenly becomes rather engaging when it's bedtime

[Anonymous No.4016100]

I don't know how to start to learn, I just sit and stare at paper for hours. Sometimes I copy some random picture from my picture gallery but that's all, I wanna give up at this point because I've been doing this for years

[Anonymous No.4016114]

>>4006544
>shitskin
>woman

[Anonymous No.4016117]

>>4008838
That's funny, I just updated windows 10 myself and literally all my art apps barely functioned after that and I had to reinstall everything from scratch.

[Anonymous No.4016186]

>>4016086
I can relate to this.

[Anonymous No.4016222]

>>4016117
shit me too

[Anonymous No.4016267]

>tumblr is fine with cropped porn linked to my twitter
>as soon as I post something completely safe it gets flagged immediately, disappears from the feed and get zero likes after the appeal
I swear.

[Anonymous No.4016394]

i just want to be able to have fun with drawing, i dont care about getting better or making a living off of my art anymore, i just want drawing to be something i wake up and feel excited to do instead of a near constant source of frustration cause im almost never satisfied with anything i make

[Anonymous No.4016407]

>Finally have good action dream
>alarm wakes me up
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[Anonymous No.4016415]

>>4008219
Kys cringefag. At least deviantART autists draw for fun and rarely beg. You're about as pathetic as people that use Kiwi Farms

[Anonymous No.4016771]

>>4006544
>check out OC/character design thread
>see people's OC on twitter
>a feeling of relief washes over me knowing what my competition is capable of
Feels good. Even if the art itself is good, their design is always lacking.

[Anonymous No.4016979]

>be me
>ok artist
>recently converted to Islam after seeing the miracles and predictions made by the Quran and the Prophet Mohammed
>read that in Islamic heaven you can get whatever you want
>mfw ill wish to come back and be unimaginably good at drawing and get married with Billie Eilish

[Anonymous No.4017074]

>>4009344
>>4008830
I have never heard that hairy asscracks give you Lovecraftian diseases so something's fishy, and tons of people sit on their hairy asses all day. Anon be honest: how fat are you?

[Anonymous No.4017244]

>wake up at 8 am
>My working hours already ended when I was sleeping in my house because I work for a corrupt government and do "home office"
>Have breakfast while checking my crypto positions and see how many thousands of dollars I make each day by daytrading LINK
>Have a shower
>hit the gym, between sets watch the phone and plan my day
>12:30 pm I go back to my house, eat my whey protein, some nice home made steak while I watch the latest proko or pirated cgpeers tutorials
>At 2pm I start having fun drawing, taking pictures, whatever I want
>At 6pm I visit my wagie friends (if they are not tired) and we chat and play some couch co-op. Old games only. New ones are for faggots.
>By 9pm I go back to my house and watch a movie or read technical stuff related to my hobbies
>Have dinner with my gf
>Arrange my shit for the next day
>Browse some 4chan
>Fall asleep not too late, I dont want ugly bags below my eyes

No alcohol, no drugs, no clubbing, no nigger tier activities


Hows life treating you anon?

[Anonymous No.4017730]

>>4006544
Please note that I have my primary hand in gauze due to an accident involving a computer case, my typing is probably gonna be shit at some points

The rib cage, how the fuck do you people draw it? Like, even for construction I've only been able draw it from reference, otherwise it looks deformed and I end up spending hours trying to actually get the proportions of the body to look right. This is why most of my finished stuff is just from the shoulders up. Most of my recent practice is just of the chest/hips and I've probably got 50 sketches of just that. What the fuck, where did you people learn to get it to look right? FUCK

And now back to our regularly scheduled programming

[Anonymous No.4017765]

>>4010455
No, pencil is absolutely enough. Almost any tool could be used to produce great art, you just need a little different approaches for each one of them.

[Anonymous No.4017773]

>>4013994
That's actually good, as you should get better over time. I have the opposite problem - I'm really lazy. So if original idea doesn't look right I just start making stuff up as I go. Which in most cases makes it worse.

[Anonymous No.4017820]

>>4012032
>>4013300
i have the same problem and how do you guys deal with it?

[Anonymous No.4017952]

>>4017820
No idea, still looking for an answer myself

[Anonymous No.4017957]

>>4017244
l-life is good thanks for asking anon

[Anonymous No.4018030]

>previous picture gave me 100+ new followers
>after the new one I've only lost few followers despite the fact that it was drawn way better

[Anonymous No.4018376]

>>4017244
You fucking faggot, how much per day do you actually draw?
All you do is sit around and pat yourself on the back

[Anonymous No.4018422]

>>4009153
Y tho
Wat do with truck load of intestines??

[Anonymous No.4018471]

>>4017074
18 BMI, it's a somewhat common disease actually but not something anyone would want to talk about

The surgery goes by fine, but the recovery and daily dressing change is by far one of the most painful things I've experienced.
It's like each nurse is trying to see how far they can rip my soul out of my ass.

>>4018422
Possibly some kind of feed? Sausages?
Making use of every part of a slaughtered cattle is the most profitable method, it also means less waste disposal costs
>>4018030
followers come and go anon, keep in mind some people only do it expecting a "follow back"
>>4017820
>>4017952
Best advice I can give you is that the only way to get better at art is by actively practicing, it's only natural that you won't be good at the start.
When I was a kid I used to think art was a job for super old people, I'd see photos of guys like Chuck Jones and that's what I thought artists looked like.
To an extent it's true, it's a skill you hone over a lifetime, and the best people were the ones who kept at it.
>>4016979
Islamic perspective on heaven is a bit weird, it's like your mind is in constant ecstasy and negative thoughts are locked out, so a woman seeing her husband enjoying 70 virgins wouldn't feel cucked, it's a bit odd.
>>4016100
Start with fundies and Huston, draw whatever you think is cool too.

[Anonymous No.4018595]

Can't do any painting coz I'm waiting for it to dry
I know you really want it
Cause your Daddy's always on it
But I can't do any painting
coz I'm waiting for it to dry

I want to know if I'm worth your time

[Anonymous No.4018620]

>>4018595
Use a blow dryer

[Anonymous No.4018649]

>>4017244
>wake up at 4 am
>start drawing up until 10 am
>take a break,check some artist that i follow, listen to some music, eat, shit
>12 am start drawing/studying
>8 pm work out
>9 pm take a hower
>10 pm sleep

it's depressing but it works

[Anonymous No.4018660]

>>4007527
nice. try some complementary colors to style it up. and yes just use a darker shade of same color for shadow.

[Anonymous No.4018666]

>>4008850
try have some fun and what make u happy. art is not about ngmi. dont thing of anybody else than study good shit U like. Make yours u love 100 then oters will like it too. dont be stuck in ur head. take walks and get out. use computer to draw paint if bored with muddy medium

[Anonymous No.4018674]

>>4012277
Like and followers are toxicity 100 - fuck that shit. alot of unhappy ppl never good enough or many like enough. take a walk and try happiness.

[Anonymous No.4018737]

>>4007855
>>4010957
Hey kid wanna /ss/?

[Anonymous No.4018843]

>>4017244
I got a new job where I sit around a office usually unsupervised. Gives me plenty of time to sketch while doing collection calls. Since I'm just doing calls and not taking payments I can have my phone and sketchbook out.
I'm getting better at drawing now.
Way better then my wedgie jobs were I can only draw on lunch for break.
It pays better so now I eat better.

[Anonymous No.4019068]

I can't do digital lineart for shit. I don't understand how people get this crisp flowing lines and what brushes they use.

[Anonymous No.4019080]

i've had literally no fucking motivation to work on this comic i'm supposed to finish this month. i've been drawing other stuff fine but i'm too fucking anxious to work on this because it's my first actual comic. i know i just need to suck it up but i keep being super fucking unsatisfied with how they're turning out and i keep getting distracted too. fucking hate this shit

[Anonymous No.4019145]

>draw
>no one in the world ever bats an eye to my drawings

I feel like my drawings have the same amount of appeal as a pebble in a sidewalk does. I'll still draw but damn does it get disheartening sometimes

[Anonymous No.4019174]

I’m basically insane so it’s hard to gauge how I’m doing in my artistic endeavors. I’m actually at my best when I’m having a paranoid phase (looking back), while when I’m happier and more stable I feel much less efficient

[Anonymous No.4019176]

>>4017730
Literally just find the figure drawing loomis pdf and start practicing from there. If you practice with his proportion method you'll be able to just know what looks right and just do it from imagination.

[Anonymous No.4019226]

>>4007732
>>4007745
>draw like shit and have no style or gimmick that appeals to people here
>no one cares
The natural selection of the art world. You either get better on your own, make a bigger deal out of yourself for attention, or give up on art.

[Anonymous No.4019229]

>>4008029
This but I started years ago, cruise controlled with what little talent I had, then realized how far behind I was because I never built up any skill in that time.

[Anonymous No.4019231]

>>4006544
I keep hopping from course to course whenever i get stuck, im truly a ngmi

[Anonymous No.4019246]

>constantly imagine I'm being watched at all times
>imagine it from the viewpoints of several people I know who will all be silently judging me for different aspects of how cringe what I'm drawing is
>even alone in my room I imagine there's cameras behind me where I can't see
>basically I imagine these people as ghost versions of themselves who can view me at all times from angles I can't see
>cover up parts of what I'm drawing and turn it over when finished even though no one is around
>know that it is 100% complete horseshit and just insecurity nonsense and on top of that, almost none of the people I'm imagining would actually care enough to make fun of me anyway
>basically act like I buy into it anyway
This is probably the biggest thing keeping me from drawing in general. Also after a full day of work and so many video games to play, I don't have the focus or drive to practice IRL stuff so I just keep drawing in my shitty style or draw cartoony stuff. Not that drawing cartoons is wrong, I just wish to improve on anatomy and backgrounds.

[Anonymous No.4019250]

>>4009729
Try some really stupid shit and see if he does too

[Anonymous No.4019253]

>>4012032
My last breakdown I was extremely horny and almost laid with a single mother. She invited me to her house and if I stayed just 5 minutes more I would have put my seed inside her. I came to my senses and ran out of there. Since then my sex drive has been really low and I've been drawing more. That was 2 weeks ago.

[Anonymous No.4019294]

>>4013324
All artists are self obsessed. Sentient beings are self obsessed.

[Anonymous No.4019295]

>>4019231
whats wrong with that

[Anonymous No.4019389]

>paying girls to cum on chaturbate
>f-for reference
>cams freeze exactly when they do
fuuuuuuuck man but damn there's some inexpensive girls out there

[Anonymous No.4019412]

>>4014416
Iktf. All you can do is your best and hope that'll be enough.

[Anonymous No.4019417]

>>4014497
>It's vomit inducing being so mediocre while everybody tells you how much of a talent you have. There's so many basic things I lack as an artist but I don't even feel like I could understand them if I tried.
This

[Anonymous No.4019422]

>>4016086
Hate this feel. Accomplish everything I wanted to after work by bedtime and then I feel freed up to draw...but it's bedtime.

[Anonymous No.4019433]

>>4016771
Yours isn't that good either.

[Anonymous No.4019490]

>workstation isnt a cozy indoor condo balcony
this is why i’ll never make it

[Anonymous No.4019726]

>regain drawing energy
>immediately lose all drive to do anything else

[Anonymous No.4019989]

>>4019145
Just draw fanart to be at least noticed in fandoms

[Anonymous No.4020141]

Last weekend I could gesture draw just fine, with results that felt confident and even some that looked like artworks in their own right. Fast forward to today and every single gesture drawing I've attempted for the past three days looks like utter dogshit. It's like I've had a brain aneurysm or something in my sleep and it's killing me, and the fact that I realize how pathetic I am for getting absolutely soul crushed over such a trivial difficulty does it doubly so.

[Anonymous No.4020183]

>>4019490
wtf is this??
why are people having rooms....out in the open... with each other? this makes no sense to me. Where?

[Anonymous No.4020612]

i have stress problems and i think coming to ic is slowly killing me i swear

[Anonymous No.4020653]

I keep getting less shitty at drawing as I practice, but I can't paint for shit and I have no idea how to improve it.
Anything other than basic ass hard shaded cartoons/anime looks like black magic to me and I'm beginning to think I'm actually NGMI.

[Anonymous No.4020791]

>people are too lazy to unfollow
I hate whoever fucking thinks this is true, I hit a follower plateau and it's pissing me off. I still gain more followers than I lose, but still. I just wanna hit that next number, for fuck's sake... I don't even talk that much. How can there be people that throw suicidal fits on twitter every other day and keep gaining followers? Are people just patting my ass when they say my shit looks good? Fuck

[Anonymous No.4020917]

I FUCKING HATE SMUDGES! THEY ALWAY RUIN THINGS!

[Anonymous No.4020925]

>>4020917
Sometimes i ink in the wrong direction from right to left (as a right hander) and i’m fucked

[Anonymous No.4020931]

>>4012726
Yo what the fuck that's literally me, right down to the acne

[Anonymous No.4021227]

I might have the basics of life covered (very loving and tolerant gf, house, decent salary job) but I'm going crazy. I feel like I NEED to life off drawing and the more I push the idea back the more I feel like my life is passing me by.

I want to draw so much. It's like everyday I see of my fav artists on social networks supercharges me but at the same time I gave up cause I'm almost 40 and I never avtually showed anything to anyone in my whole life and I only started trying to learn maybe 2 years ago but I didn't really made any progress that's not bottom tier /beg/. So I decided that if I had to make it in some way (or just at least share my stuff to make something some kind of small niche can appreciate), I should've already and if I didn't it's already too late and I'm not made for this.
So I don't deserve anything.

[Anonymous No.4021229]

>>4008933
It's overrated. Fucking makes you fele like a man the first few times and then it's just like fapping (but with more work involved) : blissfull only for a moment. And then life catches back. Why do you think all those Chad and Stacies are not happy even if they're fucking everyone?

That being said don't give up. I lost my virginity at 35 and before that I didn't date for 20 years.
Just use dating websites and don't be too demanding at first. Don't be a white knight, don't be needy, just be yourself and be playful but in a natural way, not in a pickup line way.

[Anonymous No.4021366]

>>4020183
https://twitter.com/torontostar/status/1149659449541292039?s=21

[Anonymous No.4021376]

>>4021227
Let me just tell you, given historical evidence no less, that your age isn't a definitive factor and if you truly have a passion for something you should work at it despite the roadblocks.
Imagine being a granddad and painting shit for your grandchildren -- even if it's in another 40 years, is that not a wonderful thought? A reason to go on? You could sit here for hours and make reasons to continue.

[Anonymous No.4021677]

>post my finished illustrations
>"Wow nice work Anon! How did you do that! GMI!"
>post the studies I make before each illustration
>"This looks horrible. Nothing to be proud of. Don't post your work again. NGMI"

[Anonymous No.4021711]

>>4019145
Do you promote your art?
Just uploading it won't do the work.

[Anonymous No.4021860]

If I listen to that whistling intro proko puts on his videos one more time I fear I may go insane.

[Anonymous No.4021950]

>>4006544
>TFW your neighbors son is discord chatting through speaker phone and yelling because their headphones broke

I tried talking to them about them noise issue, but they refuse to do anything. Its also a prepubicent child so their voice sounds like a literal chipmunk to my ears.

[Anonymous No.4022190]

I've been here too long and I fucking forgot how to make friends online. How do I talk to non 4chan people?

>>4019246
>another paranoiac
Ayy!
Try to find a spot that's slightly enclosed with your back against a wall. My favorite spot to be was in an unused corner of the school library behind the stairs

[Anonymous No.4022224]

>practice self head portraits in the mirror by trying to find the shapes then working with the flow
>lines are ugly but it captures my homely face
>try a self portrait using loomis grids
>face turns into chad greek god no matter how i correct it

[Anonymous No.4022234]

Why can't I have the ego of a tween artist? On the slightes critique they can whip out the 'its my style' and get patted on the back while I'm here having an emotinal breakdown over how I cant master arm anatomy.
>>4022224
I was on an art discord and somebody used one of those face filter apps on their art and it was something.

[Anonymous No.4022645]

>Don't want to practice because I'm out of practice
>can't practice because it kills my wrist

[Anonymous No.4022730]

I'm coming to the slow realization I never liked art, or anything really, and the only reason I'm drawing is because I was the art kid growing up. Why am I even drawing if I can't make a career. I could learn something usefull like coding.

[Anonymous No.4022874]

I want to draw a lot but I don't know what to draw or what to learn first. I only know how t draw (badly) humanoids. And I always go on a loop with this, not even learning clothes or props. It's so frustrating. What do I do?

[Anonymous No.4022924]

Holy fuck I'm obsessed with another artist and it's so frustrating. We're mutuals and I tried befriending them but the conversations never go farther than constructive advice or critique. It's not like I spam them, we occasionally talk. I found myself legitimately getting jealous when they were having regular conversations with other artist and realized this wasn't healthy. It's probably best to mute them so I can cope.

I find it weird that despite surpassing 5k follows I've never felt more lonely.

[Anonymous No.4022950]

>>4006591
I am a literal beg who started with Dynamic Sketching today. I now admire anyone who has the gonads to do this shit. Shame this board is so filled with negativity, this is hard enough already.

I've vowed to keep going just so I can encourage other anons going through their own doubts and struggles.

Ganbatte, minna

[Anonymous No.4022955]

>>4022937

[Anonymous No.4022958]

>>4022924
>Blatant sociopath

The only thing that isn't healthy is yourself. Might want to see therapy.

[Anonymous No.4022961]

>>4022730
I did coding for many years. Now I'm doing art for the first time.

I regret all the years I spent coding because it wasn't my passion at all. Maybe drawing isn't your passion but don't do something you'll end up hating. We only get one life, brother.

[Anonymous No.4022964]

>>4022958
if they were a sociopath i dont think they'd be recognizing their behavior as unhealthy and trying to fix it

[Anonymous No.4022967]

>>4022964
>sociopaths can't identifies sociopaths
try again anon

[Anonymous No.4022969]

>>4022924
I don't know why the other guy is calling you a sociopath but you are certainly not.

Some people are just shy. There's any number of reasons why they are talking to the other artist. Muting them only removes the opportunity for you to grow past these feelings.

May I ask if your obsession is a female/romantic interest? And if so, does the other artist seem to be vying for her affection in a romantic sense?

[Anonymous No.4022980]

>>4022967
i think you need to try again what the fuck are you even saying

[Anonymous No.4022981]

>>4022969
>supporting sociopaths to be more of a sociopath
and now you're just grooming
i love 4ch

[Anonymous No.4022984]

>>4022981
mayhaps you are jealous of his 5K follows? I can't think of any other reason for why you're so idiotically aggressive. Sorry nobody likes your draws bro

[Anonymous No.4022988]

>>4022981
you love throwing that word around a lot for some reason, anon just sounds like some lonely motherfucker looking for social connection more than anything

[Anonymous No.4022990]

>>4022988
This

>>4022981
Tell us what's really bugging you, buddy. What's going on in your life. In other words, vent.

[Anonymous No.4023003]

>>4022958
I don't understand how I would be a sociopath. I became overtly attached to someone I admire because they're nice and liked my work. I don't do anything besides sulk from afar.

>>4022969
This is not a romantic interest thing at all. More like being acknowledged by someone I looked up to when I first started. We have similar interest in entertainment and such but I still feel like I'm perceived as a follower and not a peer. I choose to mute because being jealous that I'm not in some art clique has really distracted me from drawing lately.

I just want to cope faster

[Anonymous No.4023015]

>>4023003
Fair enough. Keep leveling up, friend. Don't be surprised if they come to you all buddy-buddy when you've eclipsed them. And my best advice is to not resent them when they do-- they may turn out to be great friends someday and you'll all laugh about how this was a silly misunderstanding.

[Anonymous No.4023029]

>>4022990
>>4022988
>>4022984
im not surprised this board is filled with triggered trannies on their periods
/ic/ isnt even for critiques any more. just shit posting, please glow more niggers

[Anonymous No.4023032]

>>4023029
>he says while shitposting
amazing

[Anonymous No.4023247]

I can't stand looking at my art, it's so ugly and unappealing. I don't like those girls with a minimalist Tumblr style but their art looks objectively 1000x more appealing than mine. I've been drawing for 8 years and made lots of progress but I'm not nearly as good as I should be and my art is plain ugly no matter how much I work at it or technically well drawn it is. People say my art is nice but the absence of any real enthusiasm makes me think they're just sugar coating or keeping me around as a lolcow.
Just saw this girl draw a similar concept to mine and it looks infinitely more appealing even if I wouldn't use that style in my work.

[Anonymous No.4023255]

>>4020917
For me it happens when I try to erase something. It smudges the paper. It also happens when I accidentally slide my finger on drawing.

[Anonymous No.4023257]

>>4023247
pyw so we know what it looks like. Either you're stuck drawing fundies styles or didn't personalize your art.

Hope you look at all materials presented in the world (old japanese stuff, baroque, architects whatever. Even if it looks shit you can reference it by taking part of it out to put in your own work.

Also hope you draws bg. If you drawn only characters for 8 years idk what to say

[Anonymous No.4023261]

>>4023257
After all these years I don't even know if I can get any better technically but it's really a stylistic problem, it's the style that is butt ugly because even my well drawn pieces are unappealing. I draw nicer environments than characters.
IDK maybe it's just my depression talking.

[Anonymous No.4023266]

>>4023261
then change the style. look at other style and aesthetics and try something new. What style are we speaking about? Animu, Steven Universe (kys), comics, cartoons, disney, even 80's 90's animu.

Explore and dont stick to a style you dont like (logical)

[Anonymous No.4023268]

>>4023266
>>4023261
and im asking as in what style do you put your art in?

[Anonymous No.4023271]

>>4023247
>the absence of any real enthusiasm makes me think they're just sugar coating or keeping me around as a lolcow

god damn, too real for me

[Anonymous No.4023273]

>>4023266
>Explore and dont stick to a style you dont like (logical)
Thing is I'm a direct result of the influences I have and it's a mix of the things I like, it's just that it looks like shit.
IDK I'm probably just depressed. Maybe it's not the style and my drawings are just shit because I'm a retard and I learned nothing in 8 years.

[Anonymous No.4023277]

>>4023273
Oh ok you do sound kinda autistic ngl, probably going through a phase. well everyone's fucked in the head so good night anon.

Keep drawing

[Anonymous No.4023296]

>drawing of a character
>same character but scaled and monochrome as background

[Anonymous No.4023306]

>>4023273
well damn if youre basing your style around the stuff you like and your influences then it shouldnt be looking like shit to you, its probably just a case of you convincing yourself that your work looks like shit. i was in the same situation but now i probably like my art more stylistically than most of my influences, even if im lacking technically. just relax, if youve been doing this for 8 years and youre imitating what you like then what could really be making it look wrong.

[Anonymous No.4023381]

I go just a little over a few hours of no sleep and get sleep demons choking the fuck out of me. This keeps happening and I know it's not normal. At most what should be happening is that I just pass out from exhaustion, there shouldn't be his sensation of something choking my neck and pressure on my eyelids as if it's forcing me to open them.

I'm aware of sleep paralysis but it's supposed to be a rare occurrence, not a regular thing if I just so happen to sleep later.

[Anonymous No.4023393]

>>4023381
I had sleep paralysis and suffocating dreams all the time. I have sleep apnea and I use a CPAP now. It was life changing. I used to sweat in bed, snore super loud, had bad skin, lots of allergies, and fall asleep everywhere.

When I am most exhausted i would have the suffocating dreams because I couldn’t keep my nasal passage open while sleeping.

[Anonymous No.4023400]

>>4023381
>tfw no qt nightmare waifu choking you while riding you

[Anonymous No.4023551]

>>4023393
That sounds horrible. I hope that's not what will happen to me.

[Anonymous No.4023554]

>>4023400
I don't want to know what they look like. I accidentally opened my eyes once and what I saw scared the living hell out of me I don't think I've ever screamed so hard ever. It's happened enough that I know how to keep my eyes closed. But it's like a force that is trying to pull my eyes open.

[Anonymous No.4023664]

>>4009662
Easy, go to art school.

[Anonymous No.4023748]

could not eating more than a few pieces of bread for 2-3 days be related to my body trembling?

[Anonymous No.4023751]

>>4023748
Sounds like you got hypoglycemia?

[Anonymous No.4023752]

>>4023751
makes sense

[Anonymous No.4024007]

>no work
>try to draw
>its shit
>got shit to do
>doodle a bit
>inspiration up the ass
What the fuck is this phenomenon? It's like the opposite of Flow

[Anonymous No.4024482]

I'm stuck in a catch-22. I draw the most when I'm awake at around midnight to 5 in the morning, but I'm also trying to get my sleep back down to 9pm-6am.

[Anonymous No.4024770]

>go to sleep
>lie down there for 6 hours, won't sleep
>ok whatever let's draw or my schedule is fucked
>Eyes heavy, mixed cold and hot feeling, feel weak
lol fuck off you retarded body, this nigger won't sleep when it's time then he has the audacity to go in dysfunctional mode?

[Anonymous No.4024913]

>know anatomy pretty well
>can't into construction
FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, I DON'T WANT TO USE REF POSES, I WANT TO BUILD MY OWN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.4024961]

>>4023554
>I accidentally opened my eyes once and what I saw scared the living hell out of me I don't think I've ever screamed so hard ever.
What did you see anon?

[Anonymous No.4026209]

>>4024482
same here
idk what it is, the sunlight just drains my motivation to do anything

[Anonymous No.4026516]

Whenever I stream commissions, a lot of my old fans come up and ask me when I'll draw *insert my waifu here* again. I always tell 'em, "I can't because my current commission clients are getting a bunch of fetish shit I'm not into, but it pays the bills, so I keep drawing that."

Thankfully they understand, but it makes me a bit sad that I rarely draw for myself anymore or stuff I'd love to draw.

[Anonymous No.4026522]

>>4022924
I think I have felt this from some of my followers and from a handful of others from my personal discord. Really, most of the times if artists are talking to other artists it's obviously common interest. When common interest keep clashing (it doesn't have to be about art), eventually they will try to communicate with each other. If you keep being you but you have little in common with the people you admire, then you're most likely never going to talk to them on that kind of level.

[Anonymous No.4026547]

>>4018030

First had soul, second was soulless

[Anonymous No.4027243]

>After nine years of NEETdom get a real job
>At first enjoy not having to stress about getting gud, because now I have a job and money without drawing
>Soon the reality of working in a warehouse hits and I feel more pressure than ever.
>Paying extra rent in my house for a second bedroom to use as a studio
>Drew up blueprints for an awesome work space
>Has no furniture because I don't have a driver's license to go to IKEA
>Almost a year out of NEETdom
>Studio currently being used as junk storage
>Only draw intermittently
>Somehow improving

[Anonymous No.4027333]

>>4023554
>I accidentally opened my eyes once and what I saw scared the living hell out of me I don't think I've ever screamed so hard ever
Fuckin' hardcore, draw it. Be that one guy from every Lovecraft story ever

[Anonymous No.4027611]

>>4006544
Mental breakdown.
I’ve deleted all my social media’s and I’ve cancelled all my in progress commissions and closed my slots. Then I sperged out on my friends so now the only people that cared about me have me blocked. And my reputation is starting to plummet and I don’t think I can make a comeback. It’s not fair, this shouldn’t be happening to me. I’ve put the work, I’ve put the time and now it’s all gonna be for nothing. Fuck me, man.

[Anonymous No.4027647]

>>4026516
That picture sums up art in general in 2019. Fucking depressing. Obsessive fan market.

[Anonymous No.4027651]

>>4027611
why ouo

[Anonymous No.4027696]

>>4027651
I don’t even know anymore, man. It all got to me. All the talk about NGMI, then losing my booth at an artist alley, having my Patreon taken down even though I was absolutely within ToS then being wrongfully called out (FUCK YOU SO MUCH, YOU CALLED THE WRONG PERSON A PEDO AND A CHILD ABUSER. YOU USED THE WRONG USERNAME, YOU DUMB CUNT. I DONT CARE IF YOU APOLOGIZE AND RETRACT YOUR TWEET, THE DAMAGE IS ALREADY DONE!!!!) and having the internet mob dogpile on me. Fucking hell, my internet is starting to throttle so I can’t even escapism in peace.

[Anonymous No.4027707]

>>4027696
Change your art style and go under a new name?
Or make a bunch of anti-pedophilia propaganda to para to the ban dead masses

[Anonymous No.4028410]

>>4027696
wats your disc or twitter ouo

[Anonymous No.4028413]

>>4006544
>>be beg
>>studying german cause im a rapefugge
>>period pain so i take 0.25 of xan
>>mfw now i cant study or draw
>>ill try pyw in afew hours when it subsides
>>mfw filled with selfloathin
What the fuck are you even saying?

[Anonymous No.4028419]

>>4028413
op here im not im my period anymoar ouo

[Anonymous No.4028455]

>>4027611
It sucks to have your future dictated by strangers. In some respects it's always this way though, to a degree, either in catastrophe or success.
I can't offer you much advice, except it does absolutely no good to spin your wheels when it's like this. Get away from art/ social stuff until you're really good and past it, or else you'll only burn yourself out with it. Or reserve it for a minimum of when you're really up to it.
As awful as it is, recognize that it's just a really fucked example of the absurdity of life. And that there's a difference between grit and treating a blowout appropriately.
But get your distance from it one way or another.

[Anonymous No.4028477]

>>4028419

So you're saying you wanna smash

[Anonymous No.4028482]

>>4028477
drop it and noonne gets hurt nihga

[Anonymous No.4028484]

>>4028477
and here come the incels

[Anonymous No.4028552]

Has anyone successfully recovered from being an insecure little bitch??

When I went to art school I never made any deep connections. There was a group I would hang out with but I always felt inferior to them because of my shitty art. Eventually I got bored with school and travelled abroad to work, I got back, and now 2 years have passed since I last saw those people. Just an hour ago I passed by my art school friend, we chatted for a bit, I caught up with what everyone was up to. She said she'd like to meet me for a coffee later on. And I'd really like to go and talk to her, hear some art school news and gossips. But I'm still feeling anxious, even though I'm pretty sure I'm now doing better than them (why does it matter anyway?). I'm a freelancer and they're all working full-time, what if they judge me for it...

I'm gonna message her, I'm really hoping I won't regret it.

[Anonymous No.4028988]

>>4028552
https://local.theonion.com/man-spends-whole-day-dreading-fun-activity-he-signed-up-1819579571

But yes, it's quite important for developing bravery so a lot of militaries practice it

[Anonymous No.4029017]

>>4027696
>>4028455
>roughly a day later
Hey. You're interesting. Can you (broadly) tell us about your situation? I want to see if it can be salvaged.

>Then I sperged out on my friends so now the only people that cared about me have me blocked
Can you give it a week, and then apologize under a new username?
>having my Patreon taken down
Can it be restored? Can you make a scene about this, on the unofficial Reddit or their Twitter, say? You phrase it like it was unrelated to the witch hunt. But if you lost because you were falsely accused, even better.
>All the talk about NGMI,
You are being paid for your work, you have Made It/ Fucking get off of /ic/, dumbass. You have just PROVEN that it is bad for your mental health

[Anonymous No.4029148]

I haven't been drawing or painting in the past few years, I have no idea where to start again and at this point I'm too afraid to start it again.

[Anonymous No.4029150]

>>4028988
Self control is an ancient meme, the thing literally does not exist in modern psychology.

[Anonymous No.4029158]

>>4029148
Same

[Anonymous No.4029253]

>>4028552
All you can do is ignore it. When you get that fucking feeling, you ignore it. You basically have to live on the edge and be stressed all your life.
I'm glad I didn't nuke my online presence in a year.

[Anonymous No.4029258]

>>4006544
i didnt draw for 8 days already rip

[Anonymous No.4029420]

>"This looks bad, anon"
>Could you please explain to me so I understand what the issue is better?
>No response
Every fucking time

[Anonymous No.4029464]

>hate drawing complicated shit
>afraid if I simplify my work and quit stressing over getting things perfect people will accuse me of regressing

[Anonymous No.4029466]

>>4029464
Oh fuqq I'm at the phase where I'm starting to try and let myself be more loose with my work and now I'm scared of the same thing

[Anonymous No.4029534]

>>4029150
Sounds like bullshit, cite?

[Anonymous No.4029537]

>>4029420
Option 1- it is unilaterally bad
Option 2- they were trolling
Option 3- >>4008998

[Anonymous No.4029556]

Does anyone ever feel they're ashamed and sometimes even pained while drawing? Is this a deity's message to me to stop drawing?

[Anonymous No.4029707]

I just want someone to play MHGU with me. If you want I even draw your waifu after some game time. Why must life be so mean? Why does no one want a artist who just want to play MHGU and draw. Artist life is so lonely.

[Anonymous No.4029872]

I don't know what to do bros. I want to draw cool shit, but also porn... and also furries. Is it possible to keep those three things separate and manage multiple accounts or should I focus on one thing and do the others for fun?

[Anonymous No.4029876]

>>4029872
Most normies won't care about occasional furries, the rest of the internet isn't like 4chan and doesn't get upset seeing an anthro dog or something. Just make separate accounts for your SFW and NSFW so people can avoid the later if they don't like lewds. Unless you're drawing hyper degenerate/controversial stuff, most people won't care if you draw smut in addition to your "normal" art.

[Anonymous No.4029903]

>>4029876
Thanks anon. No I don't draw anything of the sort, just vanilla fetishes when it comes to porn. What do you think pays better? Regular porn or furries?

[Anonymous No.4029947]

>>4029537
You know almost all the actual crit I get at this point is completely vague so I'm starting to feel like it's usually 2-3. I'm starting to feel like I've outgrown /ic/.

[Anonymous No.4029951]

>>4029903
I'm pretty sure furries usually pay a lot more. They're infamous for it.

[Anonymous No.4030193]

>used tumblr and dA when I was young
>now stuck with the style
let me out

[Anonymous No.4030467]

>>4029017
My situation? Doesn't really compare since it's more personal than professional.

[Anonymous No.4030510]

>>4030467
Most of the problems you're describing are material rather than emotional, tho.

But you raise a good point. If you're willing to talk about it, do you
-know if your thing has a diagnosis? If it has been described medically then someone somewhere has put a lot of thought into specifically what you'd be feeling and how to fix the surrounding situation.
-have anyone you can talk to offline? The situation IS comprehensible to a normie, you're independently working as an artist but your business got totalled as a result of incomptence.
-have anything you can do offline? Draw, park, bonfire, phone apps? Especially outside/sunlight

[Anonymous No.4030763]

>>4009743
>I've been studying and practicing almost every day since
Based aggressive motivator anons

[Anonymous No.4030769]

>>4013294
All my mnemonics used to be about disgusting porn shit
N1 now gg

[Anonymous No.4030777]

>>4022950
>I've vowed to keep going just so I can encourage other anons going through their own doubts and struggles.
Would you believe me if I told you half the crabs on here started out like this? No, you probably wouldn't.
Post your work friendo and thus stake your honor upon the vow you just made.

[Anonymous No.4030781]

>>4023029
>this is the guy calling people sociopaths
Like pottery

[Anonymous No.4030808]

>>4030763
I've burnt out since then and just feel really unhappy and have a sense of dread about art lately

[Anonymous No.4031593]

i utterly fucking despise the art industry

[Anonymous No.4031606]

>>4030808
Ugh me too. It's not cool.

[Anonymous No.4031814]

>Spent time detailing a Bagina attempting to make it look appealing
>Draw out the clitoris, tuck it in its hood, make it look cute as a button
>Finally draw an appealing looking cunt
>Only after you're done you realize the Nips have a retarded censorship law that forces you to cover or blur out genitalia in order to publish your piece
Not like this.

[Anonymous No.4032049]

>>4017957
back into the wagie cage, /biz/

[Anonymous No.4032077]

>>4017244
>wake up at 8
>make breakfast for wife since she has to work so we get medical
>get lost drawing
>2p find a new cafe to get lunch and coffee break
>4p go shopping for dinner food and snacks
>draw and watch naked euro ladies sunbathing from my balcony
>check stock market see if anything is on sale
>dinner with wife quietly watching naked people
>10p watch tv and draw some more
>harvest (You)s
>1a sleep

Also no alcohol, no drugs, no clubbing, no video games

I give life 9/10 right now. Its too hot and I have to sit on the balcony to draw in the afternoon, but if it were cooler the naked randos go away. Ehhhh tough choices...

[Anonymous No.4032210]

>>4017244
Swingy linkies get the rope

[Anonymous No.4033092]

This shit makes me irrationally angry. Started posting 7 months ago, already sitting on 25k followers and ~6000 likes per post, with 90% of posts being DTIYS challenges.

I wouldn't have a problem with it if it wasn't for the fact that their work is really nothing special and bordering on bad. And also because I keep seeing goddamn DTIYS posts and they're driving me insane.

[Anonymous No.4033447]

>draw character
>cute loli anon!
>its not even supposed to be a loli
I hate it.

[Anonymous No.4033484]

>>4033447
Embrace your inner desires!

[Anonymous No.4033633]

>be total newfag to art
>own a tablet but have never been able to stay with focused practice for longer than a couple of days in a row
>play a lot of MMOs and one of my groups in it jokes about drawing doodles of our characters in MSPaint for shits and giggles
>surewhynot
>throw a really low effort thing in
>some of the others show some shit that's actually pretty impressive
>decide I wanna give it a serious effort
>an hour later i've got a wikihow tutorial on drawing faces up because I can't get the basic structure right (i learned to not just draw it as a circle/V which is at least something)
>an hour and a half after that i've got an eyes tutorial pulled up
>nearly 3 hours and one horribly scuffed and possibly reversed eye is all I have to show for it
I don't understand how people do this. Like everyone talks about improving once you have a style and I get that of course.

But I don't understand how I'm supposed to improve when my mechanical ability is so low that even the most basic things are so strenuous. Even the simplest tutorials start out with shit like "draw a circle" which I always have to use a fucking circle tool for because even using "small lines" it still doesn't come out even remotely close to a reasonable circle shape, and god forbid it's a fucking oblong, I always lose track of the symmetry when doing rounded shapes and they either come down too sharply or take too long to go down and it just looks awful.

Is there just some basic component or action I'm missing? I don't have any kind of physical disorder, but my hands aren't the steadiest. I feel like I'm trying to type a novel with broken fingers. I burn so much time and the result is so pathetic it discourages me from trying more.

pardon the autism rant

[Anonymous No.4034138]

>>4028988
Thucydides, self control is a symptom of respect for something, not a cause. And neither self control nor courage rely on self respect. Belief in an idea for instance.
>>4030777
>halfway decent people are disheartened coming here
Gee I wonder why
>>4022950
Keep in mind this place attracts the types of people who not only revel in destruction, but it's the ideal for some. This is lord of the flies, where ignorance and pride are wretchedly safeguarded because they are shortcuts to hedonistic greed. In short, keep it to yourself, but good luck.

[Anonymous No.4034142]

>>4006544
EVERYONE HERE IS A FUCKING REACTIONARY MORON WHO IS TOO STUPID TO THINK IN SHADES OF GRAY OR WITH ANY INKLING OF NUANCE

DUHUHUHUUH IF IT ISNT ANIME THEN ITS TRASH
IF IT DOESNT MAKE ME WANT TO FUCK IT ITS TRASH
IF IT ISNT DIGITAL ITS TRASH
STYLE DOESNT EXIST AND SUBJECTIVITY PLAYS NO ROLE IN TASTE DUDUHHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUH IF YOU LIKE SOMETHING I DONT LIKE YOURE A FUCKING IDIOT DUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUH

seriously though the worst part is that i know im arguing with a bunch of fucking teenagers and im too old to explain the simplest fucking things to every person that just mouths off with the shittiest, stupidest, most knee-jerk reaction posts.

[Anonymous No.4034166]

>>4034142
No, if everyone says your work is shit, then there has to be something to it. I've never seen an average or mediocre artwork compared to absolute trash. It takes a lot for people here to say: "wow, this person really doesn't have the slightest idea of what they're doing", Brian.

[Anonymous No.4034175]

>draw a circle
but its off
>draw a line through middle
but its off
and everything spirals to shit with little mistakes
fuck drawing

[Anonymous No.4034245]

>>4034175
I feel it

[Anonymous No.4034450]

>>4030510
No, I'm alright on those counts really. If you really want to help, just try to pay forward openness and kindness.
Thanks though

[Anonymous No.4034487]

AAAAAHH I HATE TRANNIES SO MUCH
They insert their insane ideology into fucking everything and wont hesitate to shriek bigot at every given oportunity. "HOW DARE YOU NOT WALK ON EGGSHELLS IN OUR PRESENCE." Worst part is their constant holier-than-thou attitude.
I've given them their chance but they have proven to be every bit as horrible as the worst /pol/ strawman. They are a cancer upon the art world. Fuck trannies, fuck their cult, I hope they all slit their wrists. To all sane people out there: avoid at all costs.

[Anonymous No.4034503]

>>4034487
I'm thinking they are so obsessed with virtue signaling (usually in the form of pretending to be some stern adversary against [random socially unaccepted topic]) because they need some way of feeling good about themselves after spending their entire day internally judging and condemning the world around them. Seconding avoiding them, there is nothing to be gained from associating with people living on spite.

[Anonymous No.4034662]

>>4006544
Fuck im barely improving anymore and im drawing 4 hours every day

[Anonymous No.4034663]

>>4034503
>I'm thinking they are so obsessed with virtue signaling (usually in the form of pretending to be some stern adversary against [random socially unaccepted topic]) because they need some way of feeling good about themselves after spending their entire day internally judging and condemning the world around them.
They judge everyone around them... as a break from judging everyone around them?

[Anonymous No.4034690]

>>4034663
They are two different kinds of judging, which becomes pretty unclear when you put it that way. They are filled with spite from judging the world around them in their head, and then they vent that spite by condemning it in public - to remind everyone and particularly themselves that *they* aren't like those people they consider bad people, that *they* are good people. This they need because the constant ill-will they spread towards those "evil people" fucks with their consciousness, I suspect.

[Anonymous No.4034729]

>>4033633
>Even the simplest tutorials start out with shit like "draw a circle" which I always have to use a fucking circle tool for
As it happens this is on the first page of that Fun with a Pencil book everyone keeps mentioning. People can't naturally form a perfect circle or line themselves, they have to use a tool. But if you just want a better line or circle, try drawing from the shoulder

https://youtu.be/pMC0Cx3Uk84?t=139
A big part of it looking good, though, is speed- it looks better if you're confident.
>play a lot of MMOs and one of my groups in it jokes about drawing doodles of our characters in MSPaint for shits and giggles
Also if its only about this, try for comedy. Character designs that are based on strong silhouettes and bright colors can be reproduced by anyone, and comedy doesn't actually have to look good to work. Even just having the worgen trying to look dignified would count because no one acts like that online.

[Anonymous No.4034752]

>>4034142
>DUHUHUHUUH IF IT ISNT ANIME THEN ITS TRASH
Minor correction there, sport

Also they're fucking with you, idiot, how did you not realize that everything is formatted deliberately to piss you off?

[Anonymous No.4034807]

it feels so good to get instant notifications when I upload art, what the fuck! But I also am not satisfied with small numbers anymore... Social media truly is addictive and terrifying

[Anonymous No.4035352]

>>4006906
not like they're that different. pain meds don't get rid of pain, they trick your brain into not feeling pain.

[Anonymous No.4035795]

>tfw you've put too much time into art that you can't stop now but nevertheless still feel like it's all just one big fruitless timesink

fucking brain

[Anonymous No.4036243]

someone make a new thread