/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

[Anonymous No.3484986]

When I was 16 my parents tore up my room in search of drugs but when they found none they looked through my sketchbook to find some incriminating evidence. They saw the weird porn I drew and showed it to me and heavily shamed me about it. To this day I can't draw anything without flashbacks to what they've done. How do I overcome this horseshit?

[Anonymous No.3484997]

>>3484986
Just by telling yourself what you don't have to feel ashamed to draw porn. Your parents didn't respect your privacy and ruined your passion, you need to fight back and draw more porn.

In addition to that, you can have a fuck ton of money from furry porn

[Anonymous No.3485000]

>>3484986
My mom seen a dick pic of mine...at that point I just gave up and started putting up loli posters all over my room to condition her to forget what she saw in replacement of me being a cartoon pedophile.

[Anonymous No.3485005]

I'm kinda in the same boat, except my parents are already pieces of shit so cutting them off emotionally was pretty easy.

[Anonymous No.3485022]

>>3484986
My mom flipped through a sketchbook in which i was merely studying anatomy and accused me of being faggot because I had filled it with drawings of naked men
still embarrassed about it years later because i'm a virgin and she hasnt given up her suspicion that i'm a homo

[Anonymous No.3485034]

>>3485022
Prove to her you're not a homo by raping here. Do it anon, it's the only way.

[Anonymous No.3485040]

parents caught me back when I was in middle school. I gave up on art but as soon as I hit sophomore year I figured out that it was just silly. So what I did is I got good and now I draw porn for a living.

Parents still joke about it on occasion but it no longer ashamed; embrace the perv inside of you OP.

[Anonymous No.3485061]

>want to make a living drawing porn (and not porn)
>still live with parents
>can't bear the thought of them catching me drawing lewd
I was NGMI before I could even start

[Anonymous No.3485065]

>>3485061
reverse night cycle. draw at night when they are asleep. become famous porn artist

[Anonymous No.3485099]

>>3484986

[Anonymous No.3485110]

>>3484986
>>3485000
>>3485022
Is this what it's like growing up in America?

[Anonymous No.3485118]

>>3485110
one of my parents found solo female porn I drew when I was like 10 (am American female) and they just threw it away and never spoke of it. like normal people.

[Anonymous No.3485126]

>>3485022
were you drawing them with dicks? if not, then your mother is just a faggot herself but tries to put on others so to hide a deep guilt within her.

don't be surprised if you find out shes a lesbo licking perv

[Anonymous No.3485141]

>>3484986
>>3485022
ah- so it wasnt just my parents that were batshit insane when i was growing up

do you think parents hate kids that fail to go through a "rebellious" phase? for me, it was almost like they wanted me to do drugs just so they'd have something real to punish me for. instead they settled for calling me a devil worshipper just because i drew some edgy anime girls in middle school

[Anonymous No.3485144]

Kill your parents.

[Anonymous No.3485146]

>>3484986
draw porn. stick it on the fridge

[Anonymous No.3485206]

>>3484986
Yikes,
you may have actually experienced "trauma".
I would consider asking a therapist about it.
I had something similar happen to me and it makes me very hard to overcome it. If you don't want to see a therapist the best thing to do is just keep drawing, but start out slow. Eventually, your new experiences of drawing will outweigh that event and you'll be able to get over it.

[Anonymous No.3485225]

I stopped drawing when i was like 14 cus i started only wanting to draw pretty girls and shit and was afraid my parents would see. Feels bad, i was really good for my age too...

[Anonymous No.3485297]

>>3485225
what are you doing on an art board if you've stopped creating art at 14, lad?

[Anonymous No.3485299]

>>3485297
I started drawing (digitally) casually like a year or two ago, im 22 now. It's just depressing because i'll never be as good as i was if i never stopped.

[Anonymous No.3485339]

>>3484986
> start researching Japanese cult Loli snuff/sacrifice hentai when they are not around.
> research demonic symbols
> research a forign language that your parents never heard of, I would pick Zulu.
>practice art in secret until you are decent.

Now begins the fun part
>draw a Loli goru snuff bondage porn where a little Cristian girl is tortured, raped, and sacrificed by a bunch of hooded cultists that look like black Jesus and speak Zulu.
> have the ending be a lovecraftian horror get summoned inside the Loli that escapes by tearing the girls body in two from the inside of the vagina. Than have the cultists take off there hoods and do a jig with the lovecraftian horror.
Send it as a package to your parents from "Mr. Franklin Yu".
MAKE SURE YOU SEND IT FROM AN ANONYMOUS MAILBOX! You do not want any ties to it.

[Anonymous No.3485468]

>>3484986
try drawing those flashbacks, then destroy those drawings in some kind of easy but serious ritual, like burning them while listening to some music and drinking something you like.

[Anonymous No.3485490]

>>3484986
In my really early teens I used to draw shitty porn pictures of game characters including loli and furry since I had no internet and hid them under my pillow.

One day my kid brother played on my bed while I was at school and found them and showed them to my mother who confronted me about them when I got in from school.

She tried to be as nice as possible about it, even saying I was good at drawing but I tore them up and threw them in the bin then locked myself in my room and cried the whole day. My cousin asked me about it a few weeks later so obviously my mother gossiped about it and then my whole family knew about it I guess.

Only stopped me for about a month though, I just got super paranoid about hiding it and never got caught again until I went digital and now I'm fully protected.

I guess how your parents went about it is the main difference, sorry to hear it OP

[Anonymous No.3485512]

>>3485061
I got you beat.
>be me
>love drawing women and cute things
>have girlfriend
>”do you think [cute female cartoon character] is cuter than me?” 100% serious every time I draw a female character
>afraid to draw what I love drawing most because I’m in a relationship with the worlds most insecure woman

[Anonymous No.3485513]

>>3485339
>>3485034
If this is samefagging, anon, please see a psychiatrist.

[Anonymous No.3485515]

>>3485118
Drew a busty OC girl on a loose piece of paper when I was like, 8. My dad found it and went "thank god, your mom and I were sure you were gay". then a few years later beat my brother for masturbating to hentai lmao

[Anonymous No.3485516]

>>3485061
If traditional you're kinda fucked but if you're drawing digital just make sure your PC isn't set up in a way that you can see it from the door and minimize when needed.

[Anonymous No.3485517]

>>3485512
Say “no I don’t youre silly” and mean it cus you should think your gf is the cutest girl in the world (no troll)

Or dump her if you don’t think she’s the cutest girl in the world

[Anonymous No.3485518]

>>3485513
Nope, >>3485339 was my first post here. I just thought of what would trigger a catholic zealot the most.

[Anonymous No.3485520]

>>3485512
Use pictures of her as reference when drawing them and say something like "It helps me make them cuter cuz u r 2 cute" and hope it works

[Anonymous No.3485633]

>>3485299
>I started drawing (digitally) casually like a year or two ago, im 22 now. It's just depressing because i'll never be as good as i was if i never stopped.
That's bullshit though. Art improvement isn't an endlessly exponential growth. Almost every artist hits their plateau at some point, usually at around 8-12 years and never really improves much further than that other than making subtle changes to their style or fine tuning some fundamentals. Instead of peaking in your 20s, you'd be peaking somewhere in your 30s or 40s. That's all.

[Anonymous No.3485664]

>>3485034
This anon knows.

[Anonymous No.3485692]

>>3485512
She's crazy if she thinks she's supposed to be cuter than something that isn't even real. And besides, it's not all about being cute what is this realm?

[Anonymous No.3485701]

>>3484986

Wow dude that sucks. I feel for ya. But because of this you have to become the greatest porn artist that ever lived. Your parents made a mistake trying to shame you for your art and now you will draw dicks, titties and pussies so good that not even your parents could deny their greatness.

[Anonymous No.3485712]

>>3485515
That's not funny, anon.

[Anonymous No.3485725]

>>3485633
>tfw you peak at retirement age

[Anonymous No.3485742]

>>3485512
dumb her

[Anonymous No.3485758]

>>3484986
So what was the weird porn you drew, anon?

[Anonymous No.3485765]

>>3485520
>bb gurl.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PlV25s-f2Bc

[Anonymous No.3485913]

>>3485110
>not being American
>drawing dicks all the time instead of listening to teachers in school
>got caught a twice
>first one was tree of cocks
>another one was dude strangling his dick with a wire
>it was drawn on a school desk btw
>mom was called in school
>forgot about it in a few days

[Anonymous No.3486124]

Throwaway answer. But I think you should draw regular porn. You know what I mean, the real cozy-loving kind of stuff. Then you just need to let your parents see it (accidentally). That way, you'll signal that you've moved away from that "weird" stuff. Glad I could help

[Anonymous No.3486191]

>>3485742
>dumb her
She is already DUMB

[Anonymous No.3486194]

>>3485913
>tree of cocks on a school desk
Monumental

[Anonymous No.3486201]

>>3485110

Mexican here, not even a weeb, my parents destroyed my cartoon drawings because they became newborn Christians, mind you, i was already 14 at the time. And no they were not porn.

[Anonymous No.3486330]

>>3485701
YES. FUCK YES. OP LISTEN TO THIS.

[Anonymous No.3486352]

>>3484986
Holy shit man.
If that happen to me, I would have dedicated my life to become to best hentai artist, just to spite my parents.

Times like these, I'm happy my parents didn't give a shit about me and pretty much ignored my existence, hahaha.

[Anonymous No.3486357]

>>3485225
Aw, man. That's such a shame. This really looked good, m8. You had potential at that age.

[Anonymous No.3486437]

>>3485299
>i'll never be as good as i was if i never stopped.
There's actually no way of knowing if that's true. It's entirely possible in the "timeline" you didn't quit drawing, you plateaued/gave up trying to improve at a certain level. And it's entirely possible if you push yourself to be as good as you can, and use the motivation of feeling inadequate, that you become a better artist than that alternate timeline version of yourself

[Anonymous No.3486462]

>>3485141
I think it's disappointing for them esp if they were wild in their youth. My parents probably were embarrassed their kid was a band geek who watched subbed anime on the weekends instead of like smoking and partying.

I'd do it again too

[Anonymous No.3486477]

>>3485517
I legit do think she is the cutest and I try to keep in mind her history and insecurities. It just gets difficult when I just want to draw an SFW pic of my OC wearing a cute outfit or an SFW fanart of Miku or Virtual Youtubers and she gets jealous of it. Thing is, I draw her surprises at least once a week in addition to everything else I’m working on. I think the world of her, I just need her to lighten up because it kills my motivation to work on anything, knowing it’s just gonna cause her to feel insecure.
>>3485520
The main character in my comic is based on her personality. She doesn’t appreciate it if it isn’t literally herself.
>>3485692
>>3485742
I dunno man

[Anonymous No.3486481]

>>3486477
don't listen to the virgins telling you to dump her or shes dumb to want to be cuter than le animu waifu

I think the way you think of her is sweet. im a girl who has those kind of illogical thoughts. she probably knows shes being crazy but still needs that confirmation from you to cool off her crazy, so just indulge her with that validation while still drawing what you want. if shes not self aware yet then yeesh its not going to be fun to deal with until she becomes self aware. got no advice for that

[Anonymous No.3486636]

>>3486481
>indulge her craziness instead of helping her grow
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[Anonymous No.3486639]

>>3485913
>tree of cocks
what did it look like anon

[Anonymous No.3486640]

>>3486636
>never talked to another human in real life
yeah dude that's what I said kek thinking emoji 100 emoji

[Anonymous No.3486643]

>>3486640
Tbh not sure why you came up with that roast, but think of it this way. Anon has a dream to draw pretty anime girls. This anon's gf is stopping him from pursuing his passion and stressing him out, from a character flaw she has. You recognize it as a flaw and want to support it because "she needs the confirmation". They should be working together to help her get over thinking in that way, and Anon's feelings are important too btw.

[Anonymous No.3486727]

>>3485712
You're right. But it's probably the reason I actually look like and act like a well-adjusted human and don't have any weeb merch or anything, nor do my parents know I'm a bit of a weeb.
Anyway it's kind of funny just in how ridiculous it is - they aren't even religious, they aren't abusive, we aren't poor, etc.. my dad just seemed really disappointed that his son was touching himself to fake women instead of real ones.

[Anonymous No.3487171]

>>3484986

Parents once busted my internet history. Lots of weird shit in it. Dad didnt care much but mom felt like I was some kind of monster. A couple years later you'll laugh at this shit. Either deal with the fact that we're all weird animals on this planet or go to a shrink and come up with similar conclusion by having spent more money.

[Anonymous No.3487175]

>>3487171
Weird - very strange; bizarre.
If everyone is weird than isn't being weird not weird, than what is weird.

[Anonymous No.3487228]

>>3486639
It was tree with dicks instead of branches. Different kinds of dicks, with condoms, without condoms, big, small, straight, curved, flaccid.
This happened in a drawing class. We were given a task to draw some thematic tree with meaning and shiet.

[Anonymous No.3487292]

>>3487228
if you drew pussies and were a girl that would have get you in art school for it

[Anonymous No.3487307]

>>3484986
Your parents are trash or perhaps just flawed people who don't know better. Draw whatever you want to. Also, hopefully you still don't live with them.

If they ever tell that story to anyone then counter by telling the story you told us about how they searched your room, found nothing and then still found a need to mock you with what could had been a personal diary. They are the ones who should be shamed.

[Anonymous No.3487441]

>>3484986
>When I was 16 my parents tore up my room in search of drugs
that's fucked up
you shouldn't feel guilty, anon, you didn't do anything wrong

[Anonymous No.3487630]

>>3487292

[Anonymous No.3488524]

>>3487292
Nah, you'd just become a pariah. Boys can get away with it because "boys will be boys". Girls in elementary school are expected to be more mature than guys in high school.

[Anonymous No.3488947]

>>3484986
look through their own stuff and shame them for whatever you find

[Anonymous No.3489886]

>>3484997

I sometimes forget that /ic/ is a board on 4chan. Then I realize it's full of a bunch of underage fags who draw weird shit because they like to think with their penises.

[Anonymous No.3489891]

>>3485725
But that's the goal anon. Think about doing nothing else except waking up 5 am, sipping some brewed coffee and doing some watercolor works when city sleeps knowing that you have absolutely nothing to worry your mind with

[Anonymous No.3491678]

Why is art such a shameful profession? I want to die.

[Anonymous No.3491956]

>spend days drawing thicc chicks, traps and lolis
>fill book with them
>put book in trash, cover with more trash, soak with coffee and coffee grounds
nobody will ever know how far ive fallen

[Anonymous No.3492142]

When I was 12 I first came across yaoi and tried drawing some, I drew one guys dick in a hot dog bun and the other guy in a position like he was going to bite it. My younger sister found it and i quickly tore it up, she never said anything about it to anyone. Then later that year I found her looking at hentai, I also didn't say anything about it to anyone so now we're pretty open when it comes to sharing porn with each other.

But when I was about 14 I had come to the conclusion I liked girls more than guys (I'm female) and I had drawn this anime girl looking all sexy on a bed with just a blanket covering certain areas and my father found it under my bed, my younger sister was in my room at the time and he asked her if he had drawn it but it was kind of obvious it was me cause she doesn't draw. She told me about it when I came back into my room later. I was scared to draw women for a long time because my parents are anti homo and I didn't want to get kicked out of the house or some shit. Eventually my father cheated on my mom and left the house, I still live at home with my mother so I still worry a bit when I draw women outside of digital. Even if it's only a face or figure study.