/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>2914979
>trusting some random anon

You only have yourself to blame.

>>2914979
Compromised? How?

>not using a throwaway mail account
it's like you are new to the internet

yeah that guy made it seem like he had ton of money to throw away to help artists but then he wanted everyones blog and was talking about sending pdf's of the books we were requesting. what a joke. just hope he isn't a malicious asshole and doxx's people in some way.

THAT JACK ASS MANAGED TO HACK MY BANK ACCOUNT AND WITHDRAW THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS, HE'S A TOTAL SCAM I REPEAT TOTAL SCAM. PLEASE BE CAREFUL, DON'T PROVIDE ANY PERSONAL INFORMATION!

>>2915045
what exactly did you give him? your email linked to a bunch of other accounts?

>>2915045
things that didn't happen: the post

>>2914979
Why is /ic/ full of kids new to the internet?

/b/ material.

>>2915105
He send me a link with a pdf. My email is linked to my wells fargo checking account. I don't know how he did it but it's currently undergoing investigation.

Did anyone actually receive anything from him?

>>2915169

But what's the issue? What did that guy do?

>>2914979

Aren't you the guy who made a thread a couple weeks ago telling Anons who if we hadn't suffered from mental illness we had no game or business in art?


Look what mental illness did to you, look where it got you.

>>2915202
nothing he's just making shit up for no reason

>>2915200
no, he's a scammer, when he emailed me he was asking for alternate email addresses presumably so he could get more log in information to amazon, and then get bank account info. idk if that guys being legit about him withdrawing 1000's of dollars but I would definitely put my shit on private and not trust this guy.

>tfw one Czech dude, one Burger and one Spanish guy are enjoying their Cintqs atm
>The fuckers won't even come out to say who they are and show their work
>You'll never know what made they good candidates

>>2915220
>>2915045

Are you guys for real or just fucking around? I didn't have any issues

I'm one of the people on OPs list. He'll be sending me a cintiq. He gave me the tracking number and everything.

>>2915230
Could you post proof?

>>2915230

You don't sound very excited about getting a Cintiq.

>>2915228
I'm serious about him being shady and asking for my other emails, you gotta wonder why anyone would defend "random gifting anon" and then not provide proof that he's actually gone through with gifting them anything. hmm

>>2915231
proof, censored because I don't want l33t4chanhoxors backtracking me
>>2915235
IM SO EXCITED WAI WAI!!!

did anyone actually send their private address to that anon?

>>2915242
you must be a good artist, he didn't sound keen on sending me anything because I suck lol. mind sharing any of your work?

>>2915242

Which Anon are you, Czech, Spanish or the US one?

>>2915247
I'm not that good. He just sent me one because he knew me from discord.
>>2915248
neither

>>2915250
ok sure man, post your work

>>2915250

Do you still speak with Op? is he doing better now?

>>2915250
>he knew me from discord.
Nepotism.

Wishlist OP can you play this song at your and Firez's wedding?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwfYHVJHMOA

>inb4 Op got so much positive feedback last time, he decided to buy a cintiq for himself and gift nothing away and he is now trying to ruse us


Plotto Twisto

>>2915266
>tfw op is buying cintiq's for himself with money that he stole out of anons bank account

>>2915242
YOU RETARDS DON'T REALIZE THAT THIS IS THE SCAMMER PRETENDING TO BE THE PERSON WHO HE SEND THE GIFTS TOO. ITS BULLSHIT.

>>2915291
yeah i got some anthrax in the mail today :(

>>2915291
he is a great great guy and you have no reason not to trust him with your personal information

I would suck his dick if he asked desu

inb4 the op dies in his nap and nobody gets a cintiq

>>2914979
suicideOP here. Someone linked me to this thread.
This thread is fucking hilarious.

Three things going on in my head right now:
1. debating whether I should go take my midterm at school tomorrow. My ability to give a shit has died but I have nothing to do but loiter around as I wait for the money to transfer out of my bank account.

2. wondering if I should get on meds even though my problem isn't a brain chemical imbalance problem. It will probably let me suffer a little longer and buy me more time but it's just a bandage. Won't actually solve anything. Instead of meds I might as well buy as many gay hookers as I want.

3. still debating if I should marry firez and take him out of honduras but I will probably become an abusive husbando until I off myself but at least firez gets to inherit all my money

I just came back from KFC because fuckit i don't care if i get fat anymore

>>2915723
oh I also forgot to mention I just bought $500 worth of lottery tickets

>>2915723
if you were gonna kill yourself you would have just fucking done it and not started a thread to get people to talk to you.


So yeah, kill yourself.

>>2915723
TAKE YOUR MIDTERM GODDAMMIT

>>2915723
>even though my problem isn't a brain chemical imbalance problem
Exactly what someone with a brain chemical imbalance would say

>>2915733
eeeeedgy. it sure is easy to say shit like that to people when you dont have to see them or know anything about them.

>>2915257
A couple of tripfags and people I used to know contacted me. I didn't accept them.

>>2915260
sure. feel free to also pick out firez wedding dress

>>2915733

k

>>2915747

lol

>>2915770
I like this dress.

>TFW got to talk to Firez thanks to my shenanigans and now he's my onichan

>>2915817
sent you an email

>>2915723

Well man, it seems you are at least considering stuff that'll be good for you in the long run. I've been in your place before and going back to education was one of the things that helped out the most, being completely alone when you're fucked is one of the worst things you can do, specially if you have no energy and continue to procrastinate on your life's goals. (literally makes you insane).

>>2915723


How come only one ''winners'' showed up? Did the rest shoot themselves on the foot or did you just change your mind?


Stop eating at KFC you fat black lesbian cyborg dyke. How is Firez gonna marry you if you look like a slimy choco-blop with rainbow hair?

>>2915828
I've been in school for like 6 years on-and-off. Burning bridges over and over and climbing out of borderline prostitution for the tenth time ain't no walk in the park. The memories of struggling to figure shit out on my own, the rejection, humiliation and the resulting rage will always stay with me. I often told myself that I can turn these into something good and that flame kept me going but it's coming to the point where I am tired and don't give a fuck anymore.

>being completely alone when you're fucked

desu it's being around other people that fucks me in the head. It's why I wasn't able to stay in school for long, because I hate being around other people. Funny that I have no problem like this online, but that only takes us so far and there's really no way to build real connection online. I have 46k I can go buy a manufactured home and plant it near the highway in the middle of bumblefucknowhere but that's pretty pointless and no matter where I go, my problems are going to still be in my head and I'll still probably go crazy so I rather give the money away to things that will actually matter.

>>2915838
I didn't tell them I sent them packages or give them tracking or anything. If they have amazon wishlist they might've gotten a notice. I told everyone I am buying shit for to make a wishlist so I don't have to type in their addresses. Fuck that.

>>2915817

>tfw acting like narcissistic faggot gets rewarded around here


Time to become a tripfag myself.

>>2915855
Okay Dinofag

>>2915855
nobody is rewarding nosefag

>>2915862
Hes stupid enough to think that firez is good and hes somehow special
Retards of a feather flock together

>>2915846

>I've been in school for like 6 years on-and-off

What dd you study?

>Burning bridges over and over and climbing out of borderline prostitution for the tenth time ain't no walk in the park. The memories of struggling to figure shit out on my own, the rejection, humiliation and the resulting rage will always stay with me.

I know, man.. I've had a rough childhood and I was sexually abused as a kid. It's not walk in the park dealing with those feelings (I've spent years fantasizing about killing the person who did this to me) but believe me friend, I am still 100% certain you can overcome this and find reasons to keep fighting, not just to ''keep you going'' but to actually want to do something in life. It just takes time, and specially it takes talking about it to get it out of your head first.

Listen, you obviously have the money I never had back when I was fucked, the best thing you can do is to pay for a GOOD psychotherapist, a professional can help you out a lot in that regard, a lot. Way more than hookers or junk food. Consider at least saving some k's for that...


>desu it's being around other people that fucks me in the head.

Friend, those people must be persons you consider to have something wrong in them, or people who hurt you. You cannot escape people forever, we need each other. We are social creatures. Even psycho's in prison would rather stay alongside equally insane inmates than be alone in isolation, because we literally go insane alone.

i miss being a janitor on this board

>>2915858
>>2915862
>>2915864


Rawr! fear my shitposting might. Rawr!

Why are people deleting posts?

>>2915879
Post your work

>>2915872

Shut up, goober.

>>2915872
whyd you get kicked out of sekrit klub?

>>2915855
>>tfw acting like narcissistic faggot gets rewarded around here
gets your rewarded in real life too idiot. check out narcissistic CEO's are.

>>2915894

So how come you're not a CEO yet? Oh right, easier to be narcissistic on a Korean nuclear site testing radio ham than IRL.

>>2915898
my aggressive job hopping will one day lead me to CEO, believe it! ive got from 10 to 20 in 2 years. i can go from 20 to 30 in 2 more. im still just a kid watch me go

>>2915883

I ate my work, sir. Rawr!

>>2915900

>im still just a kid, watch me go

Into the trashcan.

Op, please don't spend all your money. You'll regret it if/when you come out of this. If you must, bequeath it in your will to be given after the fact, so you have a safety net.

It sounded like someone cheated on you? They were a bad person. It'll hurt a long time and maybe never fully go away, but you will feel more normal over time. If it's something else that'll never be better, then from personal experience, it goes one day at a time until all the days run out. Almost a decade has gone by this way for me, so I have faith you could do it.

It looks like you have nothing to lose by trying medication and taking your midterms. Medication is a bandage, but it holds the floods back to give you time to fix the dam.

>>2915749
is that not the whole point of this website?

>>2915914
shoot, I meant suicidalOP

>>2915872
I wonder why I haven't been picked for janny yet.

>>2915838
I didn't tell them I sent them packages or give them tracking or anything. If they have amazon wishlist they might've gotten a notice. I told everyone I am buying shit for to make a wishlist so I don't have to type in their addresses. Fuck that.

>>2915914

I already blew $2000 and somehow don't give a fuck, considering that I am a scrooge. I already wrote a will but I need an attorney to look over it with me. I am scouting for someone good with computers to post my stuff online once I am dead but then realized that it doesn't matter.

>If it's something else that'll never be better, then from personal experience, it goes one day at a time until all the days run out.

I know, I've been going like this for over a decade too.

>>2916045
if it doesnt matter just blow the rest of the money already. Coulda gone down in history as that guy who got everyone tablets, but now you're just that insecure fag thats needs to go to /r9k/ already

>>2916069

Fuck off

>>2916045
What's so wrong with you that you just can't keep it up? I've seen terminal cancer patients jollier than you.

Would you consider taking Ayahuasca/LSD to see if it helps you see life with new eyes? I heard there's some research going on and the result are very good. If you are dead-set on killing yourself, you could give it a try?

>>2916045
almost no one looks like the right side and he can just date fat girls instead.

>>2916045
>>2916093

Yeah, how many people look like the left dude? There's fish in the sea for everyone, do you really need to be chad to be happy in life?

Look at this guy OP. He is half retarded and definitely not a chad, but he's doing just fne. Are you in a worse situation than him?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6He0FWoFj0

>>2916105
he looks good for a retard you got to give it to him.

>>2916114
actually, my mom used to say that about me now that i think about it.

>>2916114

Well, it could definitely be worse. He's got a chick too so he's doing better than me already.

>>2916115

Yeah, no wonder you're addicted to attention, fag. My mom would just break my consoles and then tell me to bring money home.

>>2916105
Beautiful, thanks anon

>>2916115

>>2916077
I've always wanted to try LSD, but I've heard differing opinions on it. That people like me shouldn't take it especially if I don't have a sober tripsitter to make sure I don't do crazy shit like jump off the balcony. On the other hand I've had people vouch for it and tell me I should do it. Not that I have my connections anymore.

>>2916115
also sent you an email

>>2916143
Dont you want to jump off the balcony, though? Seems like a win-win to me

>>2916153
You're just pissed that I didn't send you a cintiq.

Also you only die once. I need to run some errands before I can die how I want.

>>2916166
I already have a cintiq. I was hoping you'd be suicidal and stupid enough to ship me one so I could resell it.

>>2916168
>I was hoping you'd be suicidal and stupid enough to ship me one so I could resell it.

So in other words, you're still pissed that I didn't send you a cintiq.

>>2916170
Perish the thought. I'm not even the same anon, just letting you know whats up.

For the record I'm >>2915242, that's a 21ux.

>>2916117
true story no bullshit this time:
Mom sold my Naruto game i had brought from my dads house ( gamecube) and exchanged it at gamestop or some shit for "1080 avalanche". I don't feel anything about it nowadays, but if she really wanted me to stay away from "violence" maybe she should've reconsidered the mild slappings i would summarily get.

>>2916143

I've heard Ayahuasca can be way more helpful and the trip is only like 2 minutes or so? It's a truly small amount of time (although it might not like just 2 minutes went by) for a supposedly truly impactful experience that could very well allow you to see life in completely new ways! I think it's definitely worth a try.
>>2916153
>>2916172

First off, get rekt >>2916166

Secondly, shoo, shoo. Psychopath.

>>2916236

Yeah, I remembering my mom suplexing my PS2 because she saw me beat up the body of a dead whore with a baseball bat in GTA San Andreas. Then she told me to stop playing vidya and get out with the other kids. At least I had my game cube, for a while...I like playing Metroid to silence out the screaming and broken plate sounds.


Good memories.

>>2916045
I'd like to get a cintiq medium, don't know if you're still open to getting things for other ?

>>2915242
Isn't that amazon? Last thread OP said he'd ordered a used cintiq from eBay.

>>2916269
Not a chance probably anon, they decided on the lucky people like half way through the last huge thread.

>>2914979
OP you need to star in a k-drama before you die
And I need to plan yours and Firez' wedding
Don't die yet
You have so much to live for

>>2916045
Go seek medical help, you fucking nigger. You don't have to suffer all alone. That's all on you tho.

>>2916258
>Secondly, shoo, shoo. Psychopath.

???

>>2916355

>???

???

>>2916405
stop replying to me, retard.

>>2916258
What? Ayahuasca trip lasts for hours. Unless you mean something else.

>>2916306
That felt harshly endearing.

All the packages have been sent out by now except spaindude because I am still trying to figure out how the ebay thing works internationally. And then buying wedding ring for my new wife

>>2916277
Aww too bad, I don't have the money to get myself a tablet :x

>>2916166
I must have missed something, im just here seeing another teenager whine about being ugly and wanting to kill themselves. Just do it.

>>2916503
I am not ugly.

>>2916519
haha sure bud

>>2916466

Oh sorry, I meant DMT (smoked). I forgot Ayahuasca is when you make a tea out of it. But yes, I heard the trips are amazing. I really want to give it a try myself but I am anxious person and already had a bad time with weed lmao.

>>2916466

>And then buying wedding ring for my new wife

Really?

>>2916503
>>2916597

What's up with you man, how fucking worthless and broken are you that you take in trying to hurt others?

>>2916459

What are you going to do about it, goober?

>>2916680
>this piece of shit is still speaking to me

Is a fight going down? Can I watch?

>>2916683

Come get some, little bitch.

I've been dying for some beef lately. Just give me an excuse, I dare you. I fucking double dare you, motherfucker.

wishlist op, do you like this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YixAD9GIAuY

>>2916686
I wish you'd just be dying

>>2916713

Too bad, because I'm a mighty mighty man, I am young and I am in my prime, mhmm. I eat healthy, I exercise, I meditate and ejaculate all over your business.

>>2916721
We're getting off topic. Tell me again how I'm rekt, when you have your mouth cuffed around your sugardaddys cock and balls meanwhile I have a perfectly beautiful cintiq on my desk to shitpost with?

>>2916729

Well, first of: I win because you have a Cintiq, and instead of gettng gud you decided to come here to shitpost, in an attempt to encourage someone to kill themselves. Also, you failed at conning OP into getting one, which is the whole reason you're on a tamper tantrum like a 2 year old that doesn't get their way.

Secondly: Your actions speak for themselves, I didn't rekt you. You rekt yourself, and you'll do nothing but fall sharply to the shadow abyss that'll be your lonely and cold death, as you leave nothing on Earth behind but your frivolous jealousy and hatred.


Daddy should have taught you to be ashamed for being a dick, maybe I'll have to teach you that lesson.

>>2916754
Your post is 30% accurate.
>in an attempt to encourage someone to kill themselves
This is someone else. Although I agreed with that anon that OP should kill himself, I wouldn't take it to my grave in anger like "I didn't get my way" because I'm not a beggar like you.

Oh be right back I have to wax off the screen on my gorgeous CINTIQ 21UX, she's getting a little hot and bothered with my absence. You know, that thing OP didn't get for you afterall.

>>2916767
>>2916754
girls girls, you're both pretty

now shut up

>>2916767

You took so long to respond, I literally went to sleep. I'll go have breakfast and re-read your post once the zombie state is over.

How dare you, Op. To not see me as the rightful superior entity, I deserve to win, it is my right. GIB ME.

>>2917222
what did you have for breakfast lad

>>2917860
cocks

>>2917860


>100gr of Broccoli
>2 fried eggs my chicks layed down yesterday
>2 slices of pork loin
>My own special drink (coffee, cinammon, milk, choco powder and green tea)
>6 straight hours of getting gud


What about you, pal?

>>2917877
I don't have breakfast, get up in time for lunch usually
that sounds nice, though I'm not so sure about the drink

>>2917881


The drink is disgusting, but it's part of my autistic ritual. Through engulfing the distasteful beverage, I temporarily earn the power of the gods.

So, did OP ever get to talk to a hooker?

>>2917905
nosebro talked me out of it

>>2918234
what are you doing now, op

>>2918242
Having a hangover from last night because I was drinking alone watching The Godfather. I am at a point I can't even be bothered to look up hookers on backpage. I drove to school and began flipping off this hick who almost ran over a crowd of people with his truck. I made a fool of myself. Went to class and saw the midterm exam, sat there for a while but can't comprehend anything on the test. Turned it in early and walked out, slept on the grass. I keep having vivid dreams and I function normally in them, but when I wake up it's numb again. I also try to stop people from getting executed and killed in the dreams, and then I wake up.

I went to a restaurant alone and I can tell that the waitress thought I looked spooked. Decided to give my leftovers and other amenities in my car to a homeless woman who was loitering around. I was at the grocery store and the manager came up to me and asked if I was okay when I was sitting on the floor in the children's toys aisle. I am surprised they didn't arrest me right there and then.

My card was blocked because it hit fraud alert and I called to tell them that I did order from european amazon and ebay because I thought that's what triggered the fraud alert. Turns out what hit the fraud alert was actually me spending $7 at KFC a couple days ago.

I got some drink and went home to watch The Godfather. Slept 11 hours straight.

>>2918264
OP I'm genuinely worried for you

Are you sure you can't check yourself into a psych ward for a few days? Not trying to be rude, but I think you would really benefit from focus on getting better without worrying about the outside world.

Sorry if this getting personal, but you've mentioned before that meds didn't work for you. Which ones were you on?

>>2918264
If you're gonna go on senseless benders at least do some mdma or something, you could really talk out your problems with anons while listening to your favorite music. Salvia made me see how fake reality is and helped a LOT with depression/depersonalization that shit will slap your brain out of your skull and take you to messed up places but you come out of it like you would a really terrifying rollercoaster. You seem like a person who would have a real substantial trip that confronts the dark parts of your psyche instead of DUDE TRIPPY SWIRLS AND COLORS kind of trip. Never tried lsd or ayahuasca but read they help a lot with addiction and depression. Ketamine treatments are catching on as well maybe research where you could go to get one? Alcohol only keeps you number imo never got super drunk and was glad to do it.

You need a reset OP, gotta try different methods if pills never helped you. Try different things and talk to people even if its 4chan, this is your life ffs. Sending the best vibes for you, get better.

>People asked for Cintiqs
>I only asked for watercolors
>MFW Someone will get a nice Cintiq

>>2918264
you have to stop being a faggot. if you die now, you will die as a faggot

>>2918273
>>2918295

I am not going to a psych ward. Nothing to gain, but a lot to lose. I know what I want, and they can't give me what I want.

I've never done meds before and I want to keep my clean record if I am going to be alive. I've always been the "take reality as is, suffer through it, don't try to escape or numb the pain" type.

Someone in the other thread mentioned taking testosterone shots. My blood tests turned out fine, but that was couple months ago. I wonder if my problem is a physiological thing. I eat healthy, I exercise, I plan my days, I have a place to sleep. But I still fucked up.

>>2915894
what is different between a gay and a faggot? I want to hear what you say nosebro

>>2918390
milena.

>>2918391
You're right. I don't want to die as a faggot. But when will I not be a faggot? Will that day ever come? Am I destined to be the eternal faggot? Maybe I should embrace the faggotry and claim it proud, like nosebro

>>2918493
OP, if you're taking midterms, are you paying for people's Cintiqs with your student loans? I hope not.

If you don't want to take meds, have you considered doing CBT? It could help, and it won't hurt you.

What the fuck I finally check back on my thread and dont even know whats going on

>>2918493
Reminder that nosebro spread his name by ruthlessly shitposting and giving basic brainless(and often bad) advice to beginners
Reminder that he cant draw for shit and when asked only passes out that one shitty figure study page he did from ages ago
Reminder that he openly admitted to not giving a shit about being able to draw and claimed he was only here to shitpost

>>2918511
Is your email compromised yet?

>>2918517
It's been gone since I made the thread, cant access it anymore

>>2918511
Hey, ph*********@gmail here, sorry to sound desperate
But should I be waiting at my door like an autist like I have been? I dont want to be getting my hopes up this much

>>2918520
I just sent an email to the guy giving out gifts and I lost access to my email im not the one giving gifts out

>>2918493
>My blood tests turned out fine, but that was couple months ago. I wonder if my problem is a physiological thing. I eat healthy, I exercise, I plan my days, I have a place to sleep. But I still fucked up.
>yfw too normal and as a result fucked up

>>2918524
Ok :(

>>2918513
what do you mean? I never post something more than once and theres my blog as a backlog...
>>2918493
Gays like men. Faggots are faggots. A faggot can be gay, but that's just incidental to their faggotry.

>>2918493

Hey Op, I am the guy who mentioned the testosterone shots. Do you know your total testosterone levels? I ask because it is fairly common for doctors to say your levels are fine, even if you are a guy in your twenties, with the average test levels of a 60 year old.

And also, how do you feel on your day to day life? Is your ability to think fine, but you're just feeling moody, do you experience mental fog, can't remember stuff and can't pay attention, Both?

>>2918493

>>2918505
>are you paying for people's Cintiqs with your student loans?
Fuck no. I have independent wealth. I also only bought 1 cintiq.

I am looking into psychotherapy just so they can prescribe me something without getting it on my record, but a lot of these places aren't taking new clients or they're shut down. I also have very bad experience with therapists, a lot of them get into the profession because they're fucked in the head themselves and they want to project their own issues onto the clients. I've had better experience talking to normal people, especially older ones, than therapists. A lot of therapists have an agenda which is not to help you but keep you hooked. I only had one normal therapist who wasn't a sellout or filling their own quota, but she was an older black woman paid hourly by staff and not by number of client. These type of therapists are hard to get because the waitlist is long as hell.

This is why I like talking to hookers more. They're fucked in a different way but you get what you pay for, and they have more relevant life experience than your doe eyed private university grad therapist who lives in a protected bubble and probably runs a social-justice tumblr. Not to mention that even prostitutes are cheaper than therapists. For a therapist it's like $120/hr at minimum, and a backpage escort is like $500 for the whole night.

I rather draw if I want to blow money and not actually solve anything, it's cheaper and more productive anyway.

>>2918607
I don't know my actual levels. I know that doctors are full of shit but they stopped giving out the numbers on the panels a long time ago. They don't want patients trying to interpret the numbers on their own. I am generally unhappy in my every day life, but I learned to accept what I can't fix. Accepting doesn't mean I am saying it's okay, it's just acknowledging that the problem exists. It's a white noise that never goes away but you learn to ignore it, or the color of the wallpaper.

>>2918964

You don't need a psychotheraist to get meds, you can buy from Indian online pharmacies really easy. AllDayChemist is a pretty decent one, Selegiline (deprenyl) might help you out, since it will increase the amount of dopamine in your brain, should make you feel much better, confident, happy and goal oriented.


You need to understand where your issues are coming from, though. Maybe there's nothing wrong with you, besides a ill perception of reality. Do you know?

>>2918964

>Fuck no. I have independent wealth. I also only bought 1 cintiq.

What did most people get, then? How much have you spent on gifts?

>>2918964
You can do CBT by yourself. gen lib has a bunch of pdfs with exercises and workbooks.

It's a shame that you've had so many bad experiences with therapists. But it seems like talking with hookers has helped you way more, so why change that? What have your experiences been like? Although you'd be surprised at the amount of young prostitutes who run their own SJW tumblrs.

>>2919039
I can order meds from Mexico, but no idea what will even help. I decided to visit the school nurse tomorrow to see where I can get medical intervention the sooner the better. My emotional self-preserving side is completely shot dead but at least my rational goal-oriented side is still working. I'll schedule a blood test with a different doctor so I can get my numbers. Probably gonna get normal results again but who knows, I might get a "your testosterones are at the level of a faggot" result.

I'll be honest, the real reason why I decided to get help and go on medication is because the distribution from my stock portfolio got interrupted. Turns out I had my old bank linked to it, so the money bounced and they want me to "verify" my current bank account. I was too tired to do it right, and wrote "44k" and ended up taking $44 out instead of $44,000 anyway. Now I have to suffer another week till I can get the money out of my portfolio.

I was also told by the legal advisor that it will take weeks to sort through the bullshit like writing a legit will and dealing with taxes so the gubbermint won't go after the organizations I give my money to.

The students in my class and the professor also noticed me walking out early on the midterm and began texting me. Oh shit, they're all watching. A notice from the campus police also showed up warning everyone to report suspicious behavior the day after I lost my shit on the hick in the truck, who again almost ran over the students today. I already showed too many weird signs to get away with a clean unnoticed suicide. I feel pathetic. Committing suicide is harder than I thought. I can't even suicide right. Easier to just get meds.


>>2919042
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>>2919158
Yeah I've been doing CBT type of things by myself since I was a teen.

>Although you'd be surprised at the amount of young prostitutes who run their own SJW tumblrs.

I've seen the girls use it. It's not the stupid type of tumblr though.

>>2920028
Hey, glad you're taking steps to get medication. People might be able to help you more if you can give some rough idea of what's troubling you. Do you think a break from school would help, or would it make you more depressed? There's no shame in withdrawing for a semester. You could ask for a medical leave of absence.

>>2920079
I am going to finish school as fast as possible.

>>2920651
What are you studying?