/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Any Americans have advice for the following or have experienced the same thing?;

In the beginning of quarantine, around May, I enacted upon myself a new regiment of the utmost discipline. As a beginner artist, I forced myself to study more than eight hours a day, and although I was not perfect, it was easily one of the best and most important months of my life. I could make art with a clear understanding of some of the most basic fundamentals, and I got so far as even to begin my studies in anatomy. For the most part, I was extremely proud of myself, a rare feat.

But then began the upset of the outside realm. I'm very sensitive to politics, and in the month of June riding into the present, I became too distracted to paint. Instead of painting, I wasted all my time reading the news, as it seemed the country would self-destruct at any second, and these distractions led to all my other vices, drinking, gaming, etc. to get away from it all. And so, one of the best months of my life were followed by one of the worst. And every time I tried to forced myself to draw again, my willingness too just wasn't there at all, because compared to the outside world, the act of my drawing was just so small and meaningless. And I still feel the same.

I wish someone could convince me to paint again, because I just can't seem to convince myself, and I hate myself for it.

>responding to frog retard threads

>>3444296

>Sketch stupid shit
>Fix it with references
>When someone asks you to draw something from imagination you can't do shit

>>3365344

My income hardly even covers my bills.

I would be dead if i started to pay for those 60€ vidya games, movies or program subs.

>mfw switch back to desktop from small laptop

Now i manage to fuck everything up. What the fuck brains?

>>2920423

I wish i could stop worrying and be a happy confident autist.

But no, we're doomed in eternal limbo of depression & imposter syndrome.

I have shaking hands and my hands start cramping a minute into writing.
Is it worth giving this a try?

>>2744023
fucking
shit