/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I am such a better artist on paper than I am digitally, even though I have a $500 pen display. It's incredibly frustrating that I feel like I'm not reaching my current best ability.

And as far as my current best abilities are concerned, I think I'm decently good at shading and line weight and all that with graphite, but my sense of depth and dynamics are incredibly hit or miss. I seem to have trouble thinking in 3D space when I draw, which is really annoying. I think I know what I'm shitty at and it's giving me a bad case of imposter syndrome. I can make things that look good every now and then but I feel like I don't really know what I'm doing still. I feel like I'm constantly trying to prove to myself that I'm as good as I think I might be.

It's hard to do exercises at this stage. When you're a beginner you just accept the fact you're bad at things. But I've created a number of things I think are genuinely good and now everything else I make feels more painful than ever. I've been doing some things right, I just don't know how I did it, and oftentimes it shows.