/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Every time I try to start a comic I drop it by the third page
I always end up going back to grinding through hands and figures when really it does fuck all to help me draw comics
I keep getting caught up on dumb shit and freezing; last time it was because I couldn't draw a truck's engine, before that was because I didn't like a face.

I went to C95 today, and the amount of really great artists was fucking scary. I want to make good comics but all these people better than me can barely sell

My health is deteriorating, I've always been weak but It's catching up to me. I've been eating clean for three years, working out for more, but my body performs far worse than last year, or before that.
I'm only 20, but often genuinely mistaken for a 30+ year old.

I'm unpleasant, to say the least. I'm neither social, nor funny or interesting. I don't pick up on social cues and become unsympathetic to everyone.
I became disillusioned with people, to the point people say I have "no blood".

Seeing great art makes me want to cry, and I'm pretty stone-dead emotionally, because it feels like I'll always be the consumer. I want to learn how to draw wonderful stories but it feels like I'll never with everything going on.
I have a shelf full of comics and manga that I barely touch for that reason