/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

The fucking power creep of digital art over the years.. Holy shit...
Combined with the generic bullshit subject matter, Has turned my love for the medium into a fireball of hatred and compassion.

I hate all the generic sci-fi/fantasy hyper-realistic bullshit. I hate AAA cash-grab uninspired bullshit movies/games/shows. I hate nostalgia goggle indie hipsters, i hate art trends tumblr deviantart artstation etc.

I hate these little, grubby-fatass producer executives who keep digging their orange sausage cheeto-fingers into every fucking project and ruining it.

I hate that all the artists I look up to either live in boxes making less than minimum wage, or have become smarmy rich faggots that have lost their way.

I hate how everyone is working on huge projects they don't even care about, because their desire to be the best has made them forget why they wanted to draw in the first place.

...

I'm jealous of every artist with a successful passion project.. Who is living their dreams, and gets to be happy in their comfort zone doing what they want.. with their large audiences of enthusiasts who embrace whatever imaginary world they come up with.

And I'm jealous that I'll never be able to have any of those things... Because I'm shit at art, and art is all I have.

..Yet I still keep drawing, because I hate myself, and I know that 6-10 more years of depression and I'll finally be able to create something
worthwhile.

It's not my dream to work for someone. To help someone achieve their dreams, while my ambitions rot.

It's my dream to create good artwork, and to strike a chord with someone other than myself...

I just want to make these numb people feel something.