/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

fuck this shit. i will get nowhere in live.
i have a big problems with sitting down and doing something. i want to be an arts teacher and i cant get myself to study every day. i am currently studying something non art related and i am barely doing anything for it in my free time because i hate having to do homeworks and having to sit down and study.
i really wanna be good at drawing but i will never ever get anywhere because i just can't focus.
i am starting to think i have ADD but i can't be sure unless i get a diagnosis from a professional. i have always been like this which is why it doesnt seem that unlikely.
i used to take guitar lessons with a friend like 10 years ago. while he sat there and concentrated on playing the guitar i spend my time crawling around on the floor because the guitar lessons were boring.
the hardest thing for me is to actually sit down and do something and even then i will get easily distracted. the thing is that it's not that i am not interested. i just cant get myself to do anything. sometimes it's like i'd rather stare at a wall all day and do nothing than having to study for university.
fuck this shit. i am already 20 and if i dont change soon i will end up homeless or some shit.

where do these people get the dedication to do this?