/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>be me in the bus
>carrying my portfolio
>see qt girl
>Smile at her
>she smiles back
>everything goes as usual
>20 minutes pass
>Guitar player enters the bus
>"all rite, laddies n gentelmen, have a nice day, if u wanna stand up and dance or u wanna record me on ur cellphone that's fine..."
>He can't be that good
>He's not
>Start playing The Beatles.
>Few give a shit.
>This girl looks at him, he looks back smiling.
>When time goes, gramps start tapping the floor.
>qt girl leaves
>gives him 5 bucks before leaving the bus.
>two songs later
>"Thanks for lisenin', I u wanna give me a coin or u wan my phone..."
>Old lady gives him one buck and quite a few people too.
>He exits.
>Wut. For some reason I feel jelly.
>Maybe because he's got the girl's attention.
>Or becase he actually makes money vamping the normies' likes.
>For some reason I wanted to get the same attention.
>"Ok, maybe you want to learn to play the guitar."
>"Come on dude, you just learn some popular songs for the normies, learn to sing and get in the same place"
>"What? No, brain. That's some form of prostitution, I don't wanna get attention that way"
>"What do you want then?"
>"..."
>"I...I don't know... I want the same attention, but for what I do."
>"Yea, that'll never happen dude"
>"So what?"
>"..."

So I started to think what I really want to gain from drawing. If it's the money or the attention like that guy, when you need to vamp the normies and appealing their shit tastes (talking about art, not music).

Or if I wanna keep the way I am ... learning to git gud and finishing deeply personal works, hoping that one single person likes it.

Also I was wondering if drawing can get you as much pussy as playing the guitar... because I want pussy, but not learning to play the guitar.

Sorry for bad ingrish.