/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>finally at the point in my career where I only take jobs that are at least a few hundred dollars each and have many return clients
>get something semi-published
>feel like im ready to take flight with my art career

>rona hits

>im fine, im the least affected, im a freelancer
>production companies I work for stop needing storyboards because they're all in California where its shut down
>clients who I do personal work for seem passionate about getting their projects done with me
>all of a sudden when Im almost the whole way through they start just taking forever to respond. I send over an update- it takes a week to hear back- they don't even have money problems, they're working
>I don't have any ground to stand on because Im just as guilty about getting back late

>months later
>pay my taxes from last year, its almost 2000 dollars
>i haven't been getting paid more than a few hundred dollars a month
>im drowning in bills, don't know how I will pay this months
>I can't tell anyone because they've finally started respecting my career choice, if I tell them now it just goes back to them being concerned I'm an idiot who can't feed them self

>realize I'll just have to go back to taking shit commissions and shit contracts
>feeling gung ho, take several in a day, some are only 30 dollars, one for 50, etc.
>the one thats 30 its a piece of cake, just a simple cartoon drawing of a person they know in Snoopy style
>bang it out in an hour, add a background just to be nice cause it feels too plain
>send it over 24 hours later, they're kind of nagging me because I said that I could do it in a day, didn't expect them to hold my to my word so much though...
>"it doesn't look like her"
>"can you remove the background"

I dunno lads, it just feels like a kick right in my gut, just knocked the wind out of me.
Its not the fact that my self esteem is tied up to how good I can draw, its the fact that my career has regressed, I know I did a good job and yet here I am

>>3964879
every time. i probably update new pieces an average of 3 times, adjusting random crap that people probably dont see since they just glance over it and look at the actually good art everywhere instead

>>3937725
what does it say you faggots