/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>Not good enough at drawing to like my own stuff or feel like it's actually worth showing to anyone but just good enough where I feel like I have potential to improve if I really tried
>Really want to express myself and show myself to the world and feel like drawing is basically the only way I can do so
>If I don't draw literally all I'll do after getting home from work or the gym is scroll through 4chan and MAYBE play something on steam
>Always feel guilty about days like previously mentioned and hate wasting my days doing nothing
>Pick up pencil
>Can't think of anything to draw and just sort of sit there doing mindless doodles that amount to nothing, not even having fun
What's wrong with me and how do I escape this?