/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>writes down drawing plan for the day
>does warmup doodles
>takes a break
>pulls up references for studies
>spends 30 minutes finding more references
>opens instructional video
>watches video, doesn't draw along
>takes another break to browse /ic
>pulls up art instruction book that they committed to finish within a month... a commitment made three weeks ago
>only on page 10 out of 200
>half heartedly copies one or two drawings from the book
>takes a break
>does a single portrait study sketch
>opens three month overdue commission
>erases and redraws a single part of it in a loop for 30 minutes
>goes on 4chan
>posts WHY AM I NOT IMPROVING?? I'M DRAWING ALL THE TIME!!

last night while laying in bed and browsing insta i came across an account that is like a month old filled to the brim with cool AI art and 70k+ followers
i thought nothing of it until i saw "DM for prices" and i started checking the comments and people were actually crazy about the art (bleszinski mixed with skeletons castles'n'shieeet) and it looked like a lot of them were buying it
at this point i might as well apply to wendy's

studying anatomy makes me so overwhelmed and hopeless... i'm never going to remember how to do any of this stuff. the constant thought of "know the rules before you break them" always floats around in my head. i just want to be happy drawing again...