/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I'm willing to put in the hours and I want to try my best to get good at drawing but I can barely even figure out what I want and want to get good at EVERYTHING, I try to priortize but I never feel like I'm being fast enough in my practice, or doing enough and I definetely don't know how to balance studying with personal works or copying etc.
It feels like the hours i put in really don't make that much of a difference to say doing 2
I don't even feel confident that I can improve even though I know I have.
I barely have any good ideas that I can actually excecute for personal drawings either.
I know it's a lack of paitience and I try to keep a good mentality but I hate being beg so badly.
Don't feel like I can consistently practice every fundie as well as imagination etc.
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I want to do my best aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
pls help