/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

The only art mats I have are:
Pens
Pencils
A sketchbook
A rubber

Will I ever make it?

>>3991098
>their art looks like everyone else's
that is happening to me and it fucking hurts

>>3871787
same here and i feel like a failure

>>3733147
fair enough

I went from 12 y/o's deviantart to
>struggling with figure drawing
>construction is off
>catch myself symbol drawing
>cant into painting
>chicken scratching
in about 4 years with about 6-9 hours drawing a week

I want to practice painting more but it takes so long
I can sit for 5 hours and im just about done with construction and polishing the lineart because I have to redraw constantly
the construction can take 30min to draw but every hour or so I get the feeling its off and I 'have to' redraw constantly and looking in retrospect every single one of them is wrong in some way

I'm not dumb in any sense but it's like I can't keep a clear image of what the painting is going to look like while I'm painting, even the basic stuff like which perspective I'm working on or what the basic shapes look like.

Now I say 4 years but that's the time where I've made some kind of an effort to git gud

I used to draw all the time when I was a kid, or doodle rather
I'd doodle all over 100s of pages every day and I've been told by old teachers that in art class I used to challenge myself in all sorts of odd ways like drawing various animals without letting the pencil lift off the canvas
In my teenage years I stopped drawing for some reason, I mean I'd doodle during math or whatever but not like before

so now I'm in my mid-twenties with a need to draw, I'm miserable if I don't do it from time to time
it sort of feels like a sugar craving but no matter what you do it just doesnt go away, until I sit and draw for a couple of hours then I can relax
But I think I missed out on a lot of the cognition involved when I stopped drawing in my teens
so it's like loving math, but you're absolute shit at it and it eats away at you because you want to git gud, you just don't however.