/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I simply dont know where I stand in terms of art
I cant draw digital for shit, I dont understand what the term "drawing with the shoulder" means, even simple tutorials seem brutal to me, I also spill anatomy all over when it comes to poses and struggle with different body types
there is so much I struggle with, I keep feeling discouraged with all of this and my head sometimes blocks entirely from trying to understand it, maybe its due to Loomis but its such an uninteresting boring book...