/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>2680839

Oh, honestly, I didnt even know /ic/ could help with this, I need a reference because this drawing of mines has me going nuts, and I would appreciate any feedback, really, I have no self esteem, really, go crazy, I think it looks like shit but people wont tell me why, i simply cannot find this exact pose, or even think how the hell it should look like, I have been searching nudes and tutorials since may, I hate drawing from my Imagination, this always happens when I don't use reference, how the hell am I supposed to know how something I have never ever seen looks like?!

Please, I have gone to /aco/ and /trash/ and nobody helped me, you are my last chance.