/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>mfw all of my drawing up to three years ago was mostly unfinished, poor sketches
>sketchbook after sketchbook filled with this shit
>and when I say filled, I mean each page sometimes has enough to cover 80%
>this somehow got me a reputation for being an artist among my high school peers

>I was the president of the art club on my last year and I barely really did fuck all
>I was so delusional that I seriously believed that the shitty rushed submission to the AP Art final would get me a 4 or a 5 (out of 5)
Looking back on that shit, they were fucking philanthropists to give me a 3, god damn. I don't know why I haven't gotten around to burning the things yet.

>the score actually legitimately made me depressed, and it took me months after high school to figure out what a fucking moron I am

now I can't value anything I do and it always surprises me when I win an award for whatever (which doesn't happen often anyway). If I could go back in time knowing what I know now... I always get a bit jealous when I see a teenager who has their shit together and isn't full of crap.