/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>2161773
>That old granny

Every time.

>be 17
>senior year starting
>dream is to become a artist
>must create a portfolio
>have a student that does art but I'm considered better
>rival is a AP nerd faggot
>hoping to get a scholarship to a art university
>everyone tells me to believe in yourself and your dreams will come true if you don't give up and try
>excited about what the future holds for me
>goal is to be the best artist in my while school district

Fast forward to the end of my senior year

>3 months before I graduate
>my art portfolio is complete
>everyone shits their pants at it and are really amazed
>I'm proud and happy about my portfolio
>stayed up late so many nights making art
>pushed myself to the limits and beyond making masterpieces
>art teacher thinks I'm a art prodigy and is amazed by my hard work it did
>helps me out onto getting accepted into art schools
>apply everywhere for scholarships
>really excited for what I might get

fast forward to 3 months later

>get nothing except a $1000 dollar scholarship and 3 gold seal awards for having best portfolio in show in the whole city district
>I didn't get anything big or accepted anywhere cause my SAT was a 1280 and apparently that's too low
>my rival got accepted to the art university of my dreams and got a full scholarship too
>depression hits me
>my rival drops out of art school because it wasn't his thing
>I followed my dreams and tried my hardest and nothing happend to me
>I let my childhood self down


it's been 3 years /ic/. Stuck working at sears for 4 years now and I'm still depressed because art rejected me and I hate my life. What do i do?