/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

DXM use pretty much isolated me from society.

I will say, all of you praying you wish you had less friends and more time to draw, be wary, once you hit rock bottom and NOBODY wants to be your friend anymore, you start to feel an existential depression that is akin to, well being an incel i suppose.
you feel outcast in society and start to notice the other outcasts, the ones who always bow in shame, looking to the floor, as if, no, they know theyre on the bottom rung of society. you feel it.

idk man. isolation is overrated. it depends on whether its self imposed isolation akin to an intellectual going out into the woods, but as a former thieving drug addict who drove everyones trust into the ground, people start to see you for what you really are eventually. trust is a bitch to rebuild and desperation is a stinky cologne.

back in high school, i used to groan about having to hang out with my friends, and sometimes i would straight up tell them "no i need time to draw to draw" and theyd respect that, now im 30 and in an area where i didnt goto high school here or have any work related social connections.

there is a period where you have to "isolate to grind fundies" i suppose but man its hard. man is a social creature, and the amount of brain stimulation you get from other people is something i had to learn to do. if youre bored with the people in your life, just venture out and find somebody completely different. I go to alcoholics anonymous meetings and pretend im an alcoholic just to talk and listen to some older folks. its nice actually, and gives me a different perspective. then i goto this hippie dippie coffee shop and just hang out there some and chill with people younger than me. i get sick of both groups fast, but its showed me the brain was built for finding people interesting, even in the most introverted of cases.

if you are looking for solitude, DXM creates a state of zen like emptiness and calm within oneself 2 draw with.

>>6719316

Go to college if you want to get laid, if you cant motivate yourself at the library, no amount of money will change that.
Go to community college, take the intro classes, then drop out and save your money.