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Whenever I'm trying to show up and practice my fundamentals I'm faced with fear. I dunnu why, in my head i don't expect anything because i'm a beg and i know i will make tons of mistakes.
yet I fear starting, i fear doing gestures, boxes, whatever. Even tho i did it 1000 time already i'm still afraid of the result.
Some days the fear will stop me from drawing completely i won't touch a pencil or my tablet.
I don't expect anything from myself yet my subconscious has a lot of expectations, to somehow magically improve within hours or tomorrow i will become a pro.
Sometimes the fear become physical i can literally feel pain in my chest. I had these problems when i was younger but didn't pay them any attention.
I know this may sound as a cheap excuse to not draw, but i really feel this is why i want to escape into other things than drawing, video games, watching videos all day.
i appreciate any help you can give me, Thank you.
Sorry for my English :>