/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I am envy, envy as hell. I don't envy other artists sucess, i don't envy their following, i envy their security, i envy everything and nothing about them. I believe that i am better than others, i tell myself if only i had the right tools, if only something was different.

"if only"

"if only"

But those are all lies, just to feel better with myself. At the end of the day all i can do is practice to be better, and i do. But at the end of the day I keep telling myself that i don't need acceptance from others, but deep inside i crave for it, i just want others to tell me that i'm doing something good, just so i don't feel alone, just to feel that i am doing something with my life.

I don't know what i want anymore.

I feel that i don't even know myself.