/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I want to get drawing better in a particular subject matter and I genuinely enjoy it at its core. That being said, I had a nasty falling out with my friend last month and we both enjoyed this subject matter. As much as I KNOW I'm gaining experience and grinding for this subject, the creeping idea that I'm doing it out of spite to "seem better at it" disturbs me. I don't like being vindictive, and I have a lot of distaste for the idea of doing something out of spite. I want to do this because I like it, not because I need to show off to someone I don't work well with anymore in the off chance they'll see it and seethe.