/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>3856163
I am so tired of practicing in general. I'm still failing at simple things like making head-on faces symmetrical or getting the right proportions/distance of shoulders from the head. I still can't draw completely anatomically correct figures and I've done nothing but study human anatomy for almost 4 years now. I'm still so fucking far away from being any good that I'm going to be in my 70s before it happens (IF it happens which it probably won't). I don't even want to live to that point and will have probably killed myself long before that. I think I just hate everything about art now. I don't want to hate art, but I can't help it. In theory it should be really fun, but it just isn't. I have never encountered anything that is as stupidly obtuse and frustrating as learning how to draw. I can't believe there's even such a thing as "art therapy", there is absolutely nothing therapeutic or relaxing about drawing. It has only made my suicidal urges stronger. I want to end it all.

>>3718377
it's real