/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

JESUS CHRIST reading this thread is making me suicidal and I don't even go to art school!
I'm on disability and have finally started to self study art.
I was working on a certain degree in the chemical informatics field before I became disabled.
I actually really loved university compared to the useless bullshit hell hole that was highschool. A large part of me really wishes I could finish the degree but with my disability I'm never going to work in a lab again in my life so there's no point to go back.
I think I've always wanted to be an artist in the back of my head but my parents and peers beat that out of me really hard.
>not enough money
>not enough prestige
>it's not a serious job
>it's for girls and homosexuals (even though the greatest artists were all men)
A few months ago I finally climbed out of my depressive stupor and decided that if I am basically living on neetbux anyways I might as well do something with my time so I committed myself to self studying art but I keep having a great deal of anxiety and self doubt.
I keep having recurring dreams where I am going to an art school and it's just like my stem program except for art and I am having the time of my life and learning so much and the future looks so bright; then I wake up and feel lesser for not going to a "real" art school.
This thread makes me realize that the art school of my dreams is probably just a fantasy. Also I'm extremely autistic so if you just go to art school to "socialize and network" instead of actually learning anything then I don't think it's for me anyways. I think half my professors in my STEM school were actually no joke autists which is why I suspect I got along with them so well, everyone there was so passionate about their work and there was so little bullshit in any of the courses. The contrast between the humanities courses I was forced to take and chem was like a joke; we just sat around in a circle and discussed how some gay ass poem made us feel for an hour.

>>5160046
>hypothesis: being annoying garners attention, but bad attention. I will now implement being annoying in various ways to see if results change

>>5158996
my research suggests that studies find that experts believe that peer reviewed papers say that a booba a day keeps the doctor away

What makes a work of art most appealing to you? The characters? The story? The composition? The technical skill?