/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I'm 24 years old. I've wanted to do artwork for my entire life but have never been able to commit myself to it. This was thanks to being discouraged from my shaking hands, autism, ADHD and learning disabilities. Even when I was a teenager locked up in my room, I could never bring myself to do it. All of the methods and construction looked way too complex for me and I couldn't figure it out. The only thing I could do was type. That's it.

Fast forward to now and I'm still having the same problem. I'm having trouble comprehending any guide I look at it or following it. Whenever I can't understand it, I just give up and go look at my phone again. It keeps happening. Every time I think about the fact that I can't draw it makes me feel depressed and hopeless.

How do I finally become an artist?

How do I get into the habit of drawing? Should I force myself? I keep trying to do it but I end up just looking at my phone again and pacing around my house.

Here's some line practice I did the other day. I found that holding the pencil differently, made it much better.

About half way through doing this, I held the pencil and it turned out far better.