/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I'm so tired of my drawing process
I've been drawing for a year and some months now and I still can't wrap my head around the starting process. I try constructing with simple shapes at first, and that usually goes south and I end up going over my work several times until it looks passable. I try starting with the loomis method every time for constructing the head and always mess up without fail, then some of my drawings I end up using a really shitty sketch of guide lines to just roll with starting something to heavily edit later. I still can't remember how arms work, I draw with reference of real people very often too, do gesture, study and practice anatomy etc and it's like none of it is actually sticking. I just roll with things and can polish thanks to digital layers and all
I dunno. I just want to be able to sketch decently from the start, not work with crap that makes me feel like I haven't been learning, while my final pieces make it look like I have learned