/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>4873455
I just checkd out Qinniart's page for the first time in a few months. It makes me so sad whenever I look at it. She was suffering in pain and dying so young and so talented. All her art is a girl crying. And I look at my own art and it just looks like exactly what it is, an unskilled idiot's mediocre crap. And that's really hitting the nail on the head. My emotions are real, but I can't express myself. It simply doesn't translate. Your art can't be taken seriously if you don't draw well. It's like giving a speech and not speaking that language. People will just laugh at your mistakes and your bad accent and your stammering. and I'm putting in the time, but it's not time well spent because I don't have a teacher. So it just amounts to drawing for fun. It feels like a waste of time stroking my ego. People must see my drawings and think I'm a fucking delusional idiot. a talentless hack who is in his 30s and still sucks ass at this. Yea I'm way better than a normie, but I'm not good for a so-called artist. Dunning Kruger is over. Imposter syndrome is over. There shouldn't be luck involved. It shouldn't be a question or a mystery when you'll get good. It should be well within our control, we should have tons of confidence and a large portfolio. I was a fool for refusing proper schooling. I feel like I disrespect artists like Qinni by not doing it the right way. By not putting in the work and then putting out an inferior product.