/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Been avoiding making a dedicated thread about this but i'm fast approaching my wits end and both the painting and the process of learning how to do it is starting to become very draining for me.

You see when I wasn't studying it I had a sense of how to render and I did it with meh results but most importantly I actually finished pictures. Now that i'm actively studying ( courses tutorials studies etc.) I can only paint studies but can't transfer anything that I've picked up and successfully applied it to my own art.

It's like I'm petrified to fail all of a sudden and lately i spent HOURS brute forcing everything i touch, looking at countless pictures for references and inspiration, and doing all of these studies. Hell I picked up watercolors because I figure trad would aid in understanding how to paint better.

What am I doing wrong, and how do I bridge the gap?

Pic related is my work and i regularly posted in the OC threads till recently.

Thank you for helping an anon out in advance :)