/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>5229557
Work has been infuriating and today's paycheck after working 12 hours a day for two weeks has taken me over the edge. I want to use this check to find courses or a tutor to teach me but fiverr is full of people who don't understand what I want.

Art courses are like 2500$ minimum. I've been reading this book by James Gurney about color and light but I realize now, i'm kinda retarded because the knowledge isn't sticking. I really want to improve and I feel like i've been at the same place for the past year.