/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>2251154
>NEET
>no education
>worked in living hell 13 hours per day for food
>diagnosed MDR-TB
>after three years in clinic
>trying to find job again and again
>"we don't need 24 yo neet without education and any skills" again and again
>learning to draw for two years without much progress
>can't draw lineart
>everyday spent hours on creating brushes and changing programs for lineart
>too soft
>too hard
>I hate drawing right now
>suffering
>I don't smile so much time that my mouth muscles start trembling if I try
I guess I should kill myself. MLP art is only last hope