/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>4503922
I mean bucket
I've been trying to draw out the bucket

I'm not learning anything solid and I'm losing my mind. I heavily rely on reference and trying multiple times with guess work and layer abusing. I can't compose a decent image and my drawings are boring my. I can't even draw a nice bust of a character without reference, and with reference it still comes out really crappy until I spend hours trying to make it look presentable. I'm having a meltdown today because I just feel like a hack. I post art every day that some people like, and even get paid to do drawings for them, meanwhile I'm still struggling with the basics for hours. I don't get why I'm unable to draw attractive faces or decent perspective yet after observing and drawing characters every day. Sometimes I draw simple shapes too but that is boring and I feel like it doesn't do anything for me. But then I try to draw things like prokos rib cage and pelvis shape that he shows in the videos, and I dont understand them at all, then I go ahead to draw the body over the poorly shaped ribcage and it's all out of whack. I try again and again. It's all so tiring but I really want to become a good artist so that I can make fun comics and fan art me and other people like