/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

How do I get the energy or motivation to do drawing? Even when I feel the absolute best on my stimulant medicine, I can't bring myself to draw or do anything at all.

I'm autistic, with ADHD. I can't focus on trying to get better at all or even come up with anything to draw without just giving up and going back to looking at my phone and doing something else.
I've legitimately never been able to commit myself to any serious hobby and have gotten lazy over the years with my only actual one which is writing and the only reason I'm good at writing is because I wanted people to be able to understand what the fuck I was saying and I wanted to write good stories because I thought I'd never be able to make them in a visual medium, but that's it. I've never been able to commit to a serious routine, schedule, or anything. I just sit in my room online doing basically nothing.
Everything I try doing looks so daunting and impossible. I tried learning Source Filmmaker as a teen and I gave up immediately because it looked too complicated. I tried learning how to make my own games in game maker, gave up immediately and never touched it. Even something like drawing just looks so complex and impossible. This is what it's like for everything I try doing.

I'm autistic, with ADHD. I can't focus on trying to get better at all or even come up with anything to draw without just giving up and going back to looking at my phone and doing something else.
I've legitimately never been able to commit myself to any serious hobby and have gotten lazy over the years with my only actual one which is writing and the only reason I'm good at writing is because I wanted people to be able to understand what the fuck I was saying and I wanted to write good stories because I thought I'd never be able to make them in a visual medium, but that's it. I've never been able to commit to a serious routine, schedule, or anything. I just sit in my room online doing basically nothing.
Everything I try doing looks so daunting and impossible. I tried learning Source Filmmaker as a teen and I gave up immediately because it looked too complicated. I tried learning how to make my own games in game maker, gave up immediately and never touched it. Even something like drawing just looks so complex and impossible. This is what it's like for everything I try doing.

>>7060223

How do I draw when I don't know what to draw, can't get myself motivated and never have enough energy and ADHD constantly pulling me away from it? Even when I'm on my medicine, I can't bring myself to focus.

Am I legitimately too retarded to be an artist?

I've been wanting to draw for my entire life and I was doing writing instead because I thought I'd never be good at drawing. Now I'm finally trying to draw and I feel like I'm getting nowhere. All I can do is bring myself to do is line exercises from my shoulder. I can't do geometric shapes or really anything else. I haven't done a single actual sketch yet. I can only get myself to draw in random sporadic bursts for less than 30 seconds at most.

I did more drawing with my wrist today, I've always had better luck drawing small than with something big.