/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Ughhhh I deleted my galleries and I still haven't drawn anything
I hope the fags at ng don't kick me off the front page for not posting anything

>>3875164
>Started in 2016 so had longer to draw
>Still less progress than this
>Even regressed
Talent is real

I can't look at it anymore. I just can't.
Deleted all my art from all my galleries.
Even on my PC.
There is nothing now.

>>3865669
I did requests for attention. I realized that the majority of the drawings I've made are just requests from the various draw threads. I started out doing my own stuff but got a request on DeviantArt one day that I ended up doing. The initial wave of confidence and dunning Kruger that I got from being peppered with probably bogus compliments from some dA bozo trying to get free art out of a 16 year old was what drove me to keep doing reqs. I eventually moved over to 4chan and starter doing it here. I got fed up with it specifically on /v/ because of the constant belittlement and eventual ignoring of my work when a better artist would post. It was then I realized that to a lot of them, I was just a means to an end to get their shitty fetishes in a visual medium. I forced myself to stop so I could get back to strictly drawing for myself like ever artist should strive to but realized that the motivation I had was gone because I didn't have people actively encouraging me to draw so they could get my creation. I had to be my own motivator but looking at how shitty my own art was made me not want to draw. I can't stop comparing my work to others even outside of those stupid drawthreads. Even artists I follow and look up to piss me off occasionally if they post something on the same day I try to make something because I realize their 15 minute sketches put my 3-4 hour shit scribbles shame.
I occasionally go to drawthreads and purposefully degrade and insult drawfags by calling them slaves or saying that their art sucks dick in the hopes that some will leave to go draw for themselves. But I also sometimes insult those who are legitimately skilled out if frustration for making me feel the way I do now.
Drawing was fun when I thought I was good.

>>3810265
I don't.
Also fuck off dumb goteposter.