/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Hey.

I decided to leave because I realized LAS actually started to have the opposite effect and hinder me in reaching my goals (gamedev). I realized more than often I would feel content about myself for just putting together some 1 hour work, uploading it here and calling it done for the day, using this as an excuse to tell myself it was enough and that "I did good". But this is barely enough at all. I know to this some will want to reply "but you just need upload your work once a day, it's irrelevant to how much you draw a day". This is absolutely correct but in my case it was decided from the start I wouldn't attach anything personal to my LAS account. There are days, if not most days now, where I just really want to draw and apply what I learn to things related to my projects and not worry having to draw some forced drawing or fanart at the end of the day for LAS.

I'm truly grateful for Lava and LAS as a whole for having made me draw more. It was really great, I had never done so much in the past and, although I'm still a beginner, I feel like my skills and my mindset evolved a lot. But recently I've asked myself this question, "would I still be able to draw every day without LAS?", "It's been 4 months and a half now, if even after all this time I can't even get myself to be more productive without hand holding then there's truly no hope for me and I'll never manage to make my dreams come true in my lifetime." I learned to build a new habit, I need to learn to continue on my own now.

Sorry for tripfagging out of nowhere like that, it just didn't feel right to leave like a thief without saying a word. You're free to tell me to fuck off though, actually I'd prefer that and it'd feel more natural. I feel sad leaving but I'd rather leave now when I still like this place and everyone than quit with bitter feelings. Sorry I couldn't keep the promise, 26 anon.

Thanks for the laughs everyone. I wish you all the best.
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