/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I feel this.
I’m terrified of turning 23. I think that if I haven’t accomplished something artistically by the time June rolls around, I’ll probably kill myself.
I don’t know where things went so wrong. I feel like my whole life has been a mistake and I’ve never been able to correct myself. Now I’m 6 months away from being 23 and at that point, I’ll have friends who have degrees and I will be in the same rut that I’ve been in ever since I can remember.
The last time I felt like I could make art indefinitely was when I was 14. I was drawing shit constantly, for a year, and kept posting and interacting with my followers until I hit 1000+. Highschool started and I had to drop everything.
I don’t know how to return to being that person again. I’m taking the semester off to see if dedicating myself 100% to my art will actually get me somewhere. It has to work. if it doesn’t, in one way or another my life is over.