/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Two months ago I spent a whole week advertising on Twitter, Reddit (yes), Deviantart and even making auctions at all those little commission websites. Even got a popular friend (15k+followers) to advertise my shit.

Not a single soul contacted me and I eventually gave up. "The well has dried." "I'm shit." "No one likes my art." "Fuck."

All of a sudden, on a different account of mine where I have never advertised anything, someone messaged me and asked if I take commissions. Not only that, but after I delivered it the same person ordered another 2. And wanted to pay double for these just because.

Today I am happy, anons. I'm not closer to making it by any stretch, but it at the very least proved to me my art does have appeal and that wasn't the problem. Pic related is just to make people think this is going to be a sad post all throughout.

>>4301396
I see what you mean.
I just hate how I get that intense frustrating feeling everytime I draw something that looks like shit. I wish it was easier to control my emotions somehow. It makes it a lot harder to sit down and draw because I don't want to always be frustrated.
Though I don't get it now that I typed that out. How come I can still play video games despite being extremely tilted and frustrated? I sometimes am so tilted that my hands start to literally shake yet I keep on playing. But for drawing, I get this sinking feeling everytime I think about sitting down and making another shit drawing.
Am I just NGMI?

>>4267625
The top was with pencil and the bottom was with ballpoint.

People always stress about how you should change your mediums so that's what I've been trying to do. I've also been drawing for fun digitally but my grinds are done traditionally.

How much longer do I need to grind anon?

I know that the way to improve at drawing is to force yourself to sit down and draw even if you don't feel like drawing or not. But this really comes from the mentality that when you do so, you will eventually enter a "zone" in which you start to lose track of time and eventually, 4-6 hours have gone by and you didn't even realize it.

The problem I have is that I can never enter this zone. It could be because I burnt myself out when I was just starting out by doing 10-12 hour days or depression, not sure which.

I'm wondering if anyone else has this problem of not being able to enter the "zone."

I can easily enter the zone in music but it's the same for drawing. I feel every excruciating hour that passes by and it makes me wonder why I'm putting myself through this in the first place.

I giver her my prices.
If she pays, I trace a photo from her and make it seem painterly.

Fuck portraits, I suck at them because doing a single one sucks my entire energy and joy for weeks.