/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>Have stupid soul crushing job
>Cannot quit, stuck in another country and have to stay afloat
>Wake up in the morning
>Be miserable
>Every other artist under the sun is fucking amazing and can live fulfilling lives doing what they do
>Half of them were regular workers who transitioned into art painlessly
>My art is shit
>Practice every day regardless, using whatever time I can find here and there
>Fail to improve altogether
>Rinse and repeat
>I'm a full grown adult but a failure under every single account
I can't quit however, the only thing I have to lose is my health and I'm already losing it due to being stuck in permanent misery mode, if I were to quit my misert would just skyrocket 10 fold. Despite fighting every day everything seems to forecast I will never make it, guess some people never do.

>Still clinically unable to improve despite practicing every day

>Super popular and established artist with steady income doing its passion for a living
>Oh no I'm le sad
>Get bombarded with support, affection, validation and money
>Meanwhile I have to juggle an extremely demanding dayjob while also trying to improve art
>Non stop frustration as I'm unable to get better despite trying my best while my day job drains my soul
>When trying to get advice I only get insulted or down right contradictory advice
>Constant feelings of dread and sadness as all my hard work in art and life seems to be for nothing
>In the end no one cares because I'm an unknown shitty artist
>Only thing left for me is to weather through it and attempt to blindly improve in a vacuum all while dealing with all the frustration, sadness of being unable to attain any gains on my passion on top of having to live an empty life just to keep myself afloat
Those retards really don't know how good they have it