/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I don't really have a social life anymore. Marko Djurdjevic told me people will come once I get better. They never did and his career is so out of this world now, he doesn't even bother talking to people like me anymore. Other artists in my area aren't interested in meeting up and I feel like the pros are very cliquey in general. Not that they're mean to me but it doesn't take much to notice their disinterest. For example, I remember going to a local concept art studio to pick up some equipment they got me as payment for a freelance gig I worked on. I told them I was coming the day before. I knew the manager, even met with the team once and they seemed to like me but when I arrived at the studio nobody was there. I was told they just left minutes ago. They left because they didn't want to deal with me for some reason or another. One of the most soulcrushing experiences I've had. I kind of idolized a few of their team members but I can take a hint so I never spoke to them again. They're pretty dominant people in the industry by now and I get anxiety whenever I read about them.

I'm seriously considering switching careers. It's my dream job but I've been alone for so long now, I'm having major issues with depression and I'm beginning to abuse alcohol as well. I'm having a tough time forcing myself to do studies and such now as well and I generally feel like my work is getting worse. Not to mention that I haven't had a relationship in years. I'm almost 30 now and I probably need to go back to school or something. This shit blows