/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>start drawing something for fun after months of not drawing for myself
>get immersed into it with the intention of making it a finished piece
>at some point notice how fundamentally broken everything is
>get depressed because it took ages to start drawing and you have to go back to grinding shit

I will never escape fundamentals, I will never be able to draw anything unless I master those fucking fundamentals god damn it.

I really hate trying to become a self taught artist. You don't know where to start, you don't know the priorities (because if one thing is shit then the whole thing is shit), you don't know if you can move forward or if there is this big field you didn't even touch because you just don't know. Double checking yourself after every single small thing, it's all tiresome as hell.

I really wish that I weren't this poor, learning to draw on your own is like going blind through hell.