/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I honestly don't know what to do or think about art (or even life in general) anymore.
It's like it paradoxically has rules and no rules, shit like improvement and skill just appear and happen without any logic or reason no matter which reasons people try to use to back them up, anybody with even a slight ammount of mental issues is fucked forever in terms of learning anything, and it so happens that if you're a degenerate scumbag you can gain easy money and friends by milking retarded cumbrains.
>But what about the practices and studies?
I've been there, done that, and as a matter of fact nothing fucking worked.
I've tried all my best every single fucking time i grabbed a pencil to ask for criticism and help and i only ever got it 25% of the time, the rest of the time these backstabbing cunts either ignored my cries for help or said "IT'S GUD ENUFH", forcing me to either self-critique or scavenge for guides and references alone.
>Why don't you just keep drawing regardless?
Because i'm so fucking mentally drained, not to mention all of my hopes, dreams, and passion gone due to dealing with all of this shit for 7 years from both my pathetic, incompetent sperg ass and from a lot of the manipulative careless cunts who kept on growing without me. Hell, it's also been like a year since i last drawn nowadays.
>Show pics.
Here's pic related. Might just be reference images of the character, but have fun beating the shit out of me regardless.