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>>4807712
Ok.

I have... the most extreme elements of sadomasochism. I think it’s in part to how jaded I am. On the masochistic side, I like things such as femdom or NTR or reverse rape. I especially like the concept of the woman being beneath me, in terms of her humanity. I’m not trying to brag whatsoever here, but I’m an attractive, fit person and I see myself as intelligent at least. So it turns me on to think of a chubby, stupid, 4/10 bitch taking advantage of me and hurting me. I’ve been mostly unhappy my entire life. So the idea that no matter how hard I try, I’ll never be good enough and that’s all I deserve is quite arousing. That regardless of who or what I become, women will always see through me as the scum I am. I’d love for a a less attractive girl to put a leash around my neck, that in spite of all my cleverness and strength, I’d be so easily tamed by a woman that’s technically beneath me. In the case of ntr, I see ugly bastard stuff as the best. That no matter how much I outclass a woman, or other guys, she’d rather take a fat, ugly, unemployed rapist loser with a smaller cock than me.

On the sadistic side, I find the idea and execution of hurting women to be an intense thrill. The thought of slapping them, raping them, choking them, pinning their fragile little wrists on the cold hard floor as I take them by force, pullling their hair and getting them into a chokehold as I force them into getting fucked doggystyle like the animals they are. And all this would easily be preceded by me getting them into a corner, alone, and coaxing and coaxing them further till they can’t escape, or resist. This is actually more likely to happen irl desu. I remember I was playing RDR2 and I chased down a prostitute and beat her to death, and I felt myself getting hard in my shorts. Porn doesn’t do it for me here though, I feel like I could only enjoy it irl, unlike my masochism, which seems strictly fantasy.