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I want to get married someday. I want someone I can squeeze to death.

Every individual artist has their own specific trait that they naturally excel at. This is determined by causality. It is called the kekkai genkai.
For example some artists are naturally faster than others, some have greater motor control, some have greater colour observation skills, some have creater ability to utilize visual library information, etc.
It sounds to be like you do not have the kekkai genkai of speed, known as the Jinsoku sa Hayai no, but that's okay because there is a secret method to obtaining it.
Depending on the kekkai genkai that you actually have, you have a 75% chance of being able to access an opposite one to your natural one.
This is because of the inherent nature of ones individual art potential, where you can excel at two traits but only through the secret method
If your kekkai genkai is Namisen no Shitte ry or Irotoridori no hana than you can't do this because those are not opposite of Jinsoku sa Hayai no.
So assuming you're are not in this category you should be fine, just keep trying and you'll get there eventually