/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>5163679
>Were you always planning to become an artist?
Yes
>Are you a latecomer to art?
Yes

Life never gave me a chance, now I finally manage to produce one late in my life and now I struggle with the fact that I'm terrible and not getting any better anytime soon. My time is short and running out and I'm not gonna make it at the current pace.

>trying to work on tezuka submission
>family invites me to a bunch of things this summer
>feel bad about not being able to go
>hard to draw because feeling too bad about blowing off family to draw weebshit
>want to win 1st place and get published

>>4669045
turned down all family gatherings this summer to work on Tezuka submissions
i feel like such a piece of shit but i also don't really have time to even do that
i hope i'm gmi

>>3867506
I'll also add
I have endless fucking envy for anyone attending art school, sometimes I see pics of them in social media, they're sitting around in these big studios, with models and instructors giving them lectures and critique.
They can expend all their mental energy on drawing and improving while I've got 1001 things maxing out my brain at a time.

There isn't even life drawing classes where I'm living, not even in the fucking universities.
>>3867524
Checking his stuff out, pretty cool

In ~5+ years of art I have literally never drawn something I was happy with or proud of.
I can't finish pieces anymore, it's all sketches, I try to sit down and ink something and it looks like garbage, I try to colour and it isn't any different.

The amount of times I've started drawing a comic page, only to just drop it midway is ridiculous. I'd tell myself it's just a 3 page or 1 page sequence, but I just can't seem to do it.

>25 yo
>drawing since 15
>useless art degree
>poor (but no debt)
>job at soulless marketing company
>barely did any actual art for myself through these last years
>always feeling the stagnation
>always feeling sorry for myself
>company closes doors
>confirmed three days ago: my shitty job is gone
I'm done with bullshitting around, /ic/. Time to GIT GUD.

I am fortunate enough to have a loving family back in the boonies who will provide for me as I try to rebuild myself almost from scratch. I have no excuses anymore, I can breathe and sleep art!

Any advice? Words of encouragement or scorn are welcome. Motivation, tough love or just plain crabbing.
I feel so light right now, I'm afraid I'll float too far and lose sight of what's important.

Remind, me /ic/. I'll get it right this time.