/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I like both traps and sexy girls. Which one do I focus on?

There is something that has been bothering me for years and is a guy i have meet from time ago. He doesn't know me, and we barely talked, but i'm so fucking jealous of his friendships. And i don't really understand how do he does it. He's creepy, his drawings are a piece of shit that i can't even comprehend how he doesn't realize how uttery trash they are, he once say he collects dead flies in his desk, and is obssesed with an stupid cartoon, he may be a pedophile.

And nevertheless, he has friends.

He has fucking friends and i don't. He knows pretty awesome artists and befriends them just to get shitty art from them, he has people who really apreciate him, he is the most autistic being i have ever seen and he have mother fucking friends. I've never had the luck of having a conversation without suddendly talking stupid shit or talking too fast. I feel like i'm a pretty normal guy. I don't follow weird fetishes like this guy does. I don't really understand what's wrong with me. I really need an answer. Please. I need to know why he's suscessful at this. No bs.

When I am drunk, I am capable to finish the job 3x - 4x faster (sometimes with way better result than sober...) Seriously, I don't want to end up as an alcoholic. How can I fix myself /ic/

tfw no commissions
tfw ppl drawing worse then you get them all the time
tfw no one likes you